Life Imitates Art.

Moral of the story - I'm always right and know my body better than anyone. Thanks for the diagnosis. Now I don't feel like I'm going crazy 😅

The last couple of months have really tested my strength and patience with regards to my own body. I’ve been told I need to lose 3 stone to even be considered for an ankle replacement... so I’ve been dieting like crazy and it’s taking ages... but so far I’ve lost 1st 4.5lb, so now it fees more manageable at least. On Friday I was finally given the all clear for cataract surgery after a year of trying to reduce the inflammation caused by Uveitis! So hopefully I can get my vision fixed and start drawing again :) My creativity has been boxed up for a while because of my shitty vision so I can’t wait for it to improve!!! About 12 weeks ago I had a very heated discussion with my GP who refused to believe I was showing symptoms of TLE (Temporal Lobe Epilepsy) ... I think I wrote about it on here... well after fighting to be referred to a Neurologist and waiting 12 weeks for an appointment, I finally saw the specialist and I described what had been happening to me since I’ve been 15.... the deja vu feelings, the over familiar sights and smells and experiences - almost dreamlike, the rising feeling in my stomach, deep, shallow breathing, staring into space, dropping what I’m holding or losing grip and concentration, the fear and anxiety that comes after... everything... all in 20 - 60 seconds, and the extreme tiredness after... Before I even said what I thought it was, he said it sounds very much like TLE and that I am in fact having seizures. He wants me to have an MRI and an EEG scan to be sure there isn’t anything more, but in the mean time he’s writing to my GP to prescribe me some Lamotrigine, an anti-epileptic drug. I’m so relieved though! A lot of people have told me it was just anxiety... even some of my family and friends questioned whether I was making it up or just being a hypochondriac... even my own GP ... and I cannot wait for her to get that letter from the Neurologist. I know my body better than anyone and I KNOW what it needs or when something isn’t right.... I don’t care how assertive and arsey I come across, I will always push for the attention, understanding and healthcare my body deserves... If anyone else is experiencing similar feelings like I’ve described, I’d seriously urge to go get it checked out and if you know it isn’t anxiety, push for a referral.  In other news... I’ve been seeing a very nice gentleman since the end of May... let’s call him ‘J’.... anyway it’s going well and he’s very nice... and that’s about it hahah Beth xoxox