pls stop telling me my obsessions w ppl are ânormalâ they are literally not normal
like i have a very hard time differentiating reality from my imagination and that is not normal it is not normal to have everything blurred it is not normal to have 0 control over your feelings or emotions because your brain randomly decides âeh i donât like this person who you SHOULD like bc youâve been friends for 6 years i just feel apathetic nowâ and âomg i love this person u have seen literalyl once and said hi to maximum 2 times youâre going to marry themâ like
youâre not helping me by saying itâs normal
i understand i have problems and thatâs why i set boundaries for myself like i hate making people uncomfortable and itâs totally reasonable for ppl to be uncomfortable w someone obsessing over them when they donât know them. itâd make me uncomfortable. which is why i donât TELL people because itâs NOT NORMAL and is weird and embarrassing whether i have control over it or not.
not to mention the fact??? that i have super bad social anxiety??? which makes me question my ability to fit in and be good enough for anyone in any capacity so i mean on top of obsessing over ppl i'm constantly like "u would literally never be good enough for them"Â
so yeah i donât appreciate ppl violating my privacy and potentially making other ppl uncomfortable by saying things about me i havenât given them permission to say and iâm probably gonna take a break from tumblr after this because honestly itâs really bothering me to even think about it like
stop ignoring pplâs mental illnesses bc you think weâre being dramatic
weâre not & itâs not ur fuckin business honestly