Emotionally Gone

I just want to die to be at piece to not feel this pain anymore I just want to rest to not have to fight to not have this battle everyday. I want to be okay.

I feel my heart break the more the days with you go on I small things here and there that break my heart as I watch you pretend I’m stupid like I don’t know

I don’t think I’ve ever experienced a pain quite like this before. The constant feeling of hope and love being given and taken so freely. I’ve never dealt so silenced so backed into a corner so afraid to speak so afraid to act and all you keep thinking is you you love then you’re happy with them and fighting for time with them constantly being told you’re selfish for loving them and wanting them to be with you. The pain of wanting and hoping for things to be better for them to go back and nothing changing but for he worst and feeling lied to and betrayed by the one you love when you’re supposed to feel safe and loved. The pain of hope when there’s none left. </3