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i’d tell you it will get better but i honestly don’t know if i can, i only spent about a year actually dating my ex. we’ve been broken up for 7 months and i still find myself checking to see if he’s watched my story. when you love someone it doesn’t just go away, you just end up finding someone to fill the sadness and it doesn’t happen for everyone that easy, it’s trial and error but it will happen. it sucks but just know that there are always people who love you. if anyone hasn’t told you today: i love you. people will always here for you

It Gets Better

Makeup Sex?

i miss you laying on my chest

i just really fucking need you here

“But what else am I supposed to do when your hair is soft and your eyes are blue? And my heart turns over at the sound of your name only you smile at me the way friends usually do. I am more of a mess than a rainy day because you have no idea I feel this way.”

call me selfish but i’m so sick of not having anything for myself. everything i’ve ever had or loved there’s always something better for them, i’m so tired of being second place to everyone and i’m telling you right now no one gives a fuck about me as much as i do them and it’s so exhausting. i can’t have ONE thing to myself. i can’t rely on one person for my go to, to be my everything. i give so much and don’t get anything in return except emptiness whether it’s materialistic or a person and i’m so sick of it. i can’t have one person be fucking steady for me, i have people i know won’t ever switch up but the thing is they have someone for them, they have a next best thing. i don’t that’s why i hate getting attached because i get so fucking scared about people leaving and i just want someone to stay for everything.

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