starfall;

hello my followers, mutuals, friends and everybody else who has stumbled upon this post in my absence.

i want to start off by saying that while this decision hasn’t been an easy one to make, it has been coming for a long time now, even though i haven’t mentioned this to anyone before, not even to my closest friend (you know who you are and i’m sorry bby). but i feel that i owe you guys an explanation, at least to those who will actually care that i’m doing this, so here we go.

i’ve decided to leave tumblr. there are so many reasons why i’ve come to this decision, things that have been slowly pilling up for a while now, but i’m gonna try to tell you all as briefly as possible.

i’ve joined tumblr on april 4th 2015, so a little bit over a year now, and those first few months, up until like december or january, have been some of the best months of my life. i’ve met so many amazing and wonderful people, i’ve made a few friends here and there (i think) and i’ve just had a lot of fun generally speaking.

but lately, tumblr hasn’t been fun for me anymore, and it has consumed so much of my life on a daily basis to the point where it’s no longer healthy for me. it had become such a distraction for me, not necessarily from my academics, but from other things in my life, things i’ve missed out on.

also, and this i’ve talked about once or twice before, i haven’t exactly been pleased with my blog and my general activity on tumblr this past few months. when i first joined tumblr, i had different ideas as to what my blog might turn out to be in the future, but none of them match what has become of my blog now. for me, it has almost become a chore, something to stress about, not something i enjoy “taking care of”, so to say.

lastly, i feel like i’m very detached from the community. i am here, but at the same time, i’m not here. does that make any sense? i haven’t actually interacted with people that much, i haven’t been active in the few networks i’m actually in, and i just haven’t been here. on top of that, i’ve been problematic on several occasions and for that i can’t apologize enough.

so yeah, that’s what i wanted to say, i think. i want to take this time off tumblr and to use it for other things, especially now that summer has officially stared. i want to make a dent in my tbr pile. i want to catch up on tv shows and maybe start something new. i want to focus more on my writing and to finally start that novel-style fic i’ve had in mind for the longest time. maybe they seem like such trivial things, but these are just some things i haven’t been doing lately because tumblr has been eating away my time.

is this goodbye forever? i don’t think so. i’ll eventually come back, whether it’ll be in a month, at the end of the summer, or in 2017. i think that, after a while, i’ll eventually start to miss it.

however, it’s a goodbye forever for this particular blog. whenever i do decide i want to return, i’ll do that on a different blog. i think i need that fresh start and to distance myself from this blog. i won’t make an official announcement when i come back and what my new blog will be, but i will be messaging the people that have been close to me here to let them now where they can find me again and ask them to keep it to themselves. i need the distance from this blog.

i just want to thank everybody for being beautiful and amazing people, for listening to my endless rants, for supporting me, for befriending me, for taking your chance on this awkward girl who barely opens up to people, for helping me grow more as a person this past year. you all mean the world to me, whether we ever talked or not, and i love you all so very much. i’ll never forget you. i hope you don’t forget about me.

if you want to keep in touch with me, my ask box is still open and will remain open for little while, and here’s where else you can find me:

pinterest goodreads kik: avoxjay snapchat: i’ll give it to you if we’re mutuals (it’s my personal one so)

so, i guess that’s it. until next time, keep being awesome!