all alone

Pathetic. 4 am and I’m writing suicide notes locked in my room, feeling empty and planning how I will kill myself. I’m so fucking pathetic.

7 billion people wandering by the world and I can still feel that much lonely.

I am the sea I drown in.

I hurt myself to see if I can still feel anything.

You know what my problem is? I am my fucking problem. To solve it, I need to die. And I want to solve it all by myself.

I'm so sorry for being me, I didn't ask for this.

I can't wish anything but to be gone.

My existence is a terrible disaster and an horrible mistake.

I hate myself too fucking much.

It's sad how you can feel alone on a world so full of people.

I feel so fucking tired, but sleep won't fix it.

I feel like I always ruin everything.

I don't even want to get better. Fuck it. I don't care about me.

I don't care about anything anymore... I just want to die.