emilie

“She goes on thinking something just over your shoulder. This could be the last day before you lose her. But what’s the use of saying one thing or another? When what she’s really after is to wander.”

“I wanna live not just survive.”

“And how horribly easy it is to be hurt. I am being hurt all day, & hurt by the tiniest & most subtle things. And the self, even the wounded self, is hidden from so many.”

“As if she were a spirit, as if she were no longer of the material world.”

“Long after you have stopped laughing, I can hear your laugh running up and down my veins–and yet–are we a dream?”

“I let it go. It’s like swimming against the current. It exhausts you. After a while, whoever you are, you just have to let go, and the river brings you home.”

“Somebody inside of me has always tried, with all his strength, to be nobody.”

“I was— am— terrified of being owned. By a god or a man or a child or a place. By anyone or anything but myself.”

“I was looked at, but I wasn’t seen.”