Baby boy, your secrets have fallen out of your closet and all those things I had imagined in my head, were real. It's scary to know I wasn't crazy the whole time, my gut feeling was on it. Too bad I lost my mind trying to put my finger on it...

Of all the things in life I regret, the one that hurts the most is letting us get to this point, I should've been stronger, I should've supported you more, I should've been the better person...I know it's what best at the end of the day but at the same time, every morning I wake up with this hole about as big as the Grand Canyon in my chest, and when I try to sleep if feels like I'm falling in that hole, all alone. Yes, I know what we said but this can't be good for a soul, not to love someone to this insanity and know they are the other part to you but life just sort of just got in the way. Life was always going to be there, life was always going to be throwing us around but we were supposed to fight back. I fought, I have scars to prove how hard I fought but you, your pride, and your ego got to you and you just withdrew your weapons. I was left alone out there so I fought for as long as I could but even soldiers get tired...