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“i. shove your fear down to the bottom of your stomach. it threatens to burst from your chest like the collapsing of a star, like a hundred doves attempting to escape from a cage that is doomed to never open. you swallow, attempt to push your heart back into your stomach, to quieten the thumping in your rib cage as it feels as if it is bound to burst open. ii. don the armor like a coat far too big. its old and worn and not yours but you put it on anyway, the heaviness on your shoulders makes you feel like atlas, except this is not your burden to bear. you shoulder it anyway. iii. everything is loud and thundering in your ears, yet you can’t make out any noise. it becomes static compared to the loud beating of your heart. iv. less than a day ago you were wrapped in his arms. the silence of the room nothing but a peace between you two that you would dare not break. you felt an eternity in a moment, saw a future play out forever into the future, stretching out further than you can reach. you want to grasp it, hold it in your sticky hands like a greedy child with a sweet treat. it slips through your fingers and you watch it fall. crashing into the ground. v. your back hits the dirt so hard you feel your skull rattle and your eyes close and everything slips. slips through your fingers and it doesn’t matter how hard you try you still cannot seem to stretch your fingers far enough. you watch it shatter on impact and you can feel the pain in your stomach as everything slips away. vi. he did not go down easy. history still talks of the rage that caused a massacre, the unforgiving hatred of a broken man. they say you could hear his anguished wails from the depths of the ocean, yet you were wrapped up forever in a future that could never exist. vii. you would have conquered the world for him, done anything in your power to keep him safe. How foolish that you dare thought he would not do the same.”

“Who are you, star dust kid, Where can I find you? Are you still hiding amongst the meteor showers, Granting wishes to all those that come With empty hands and out spread fingers? Or have you found your way to Jupiter? A planet that rains diamonds that still Can’t shine as bright as your eyes? Stardust kid, you are a legend around here The kind parents tell their children, To ensure sweet dreams and sweeter thoughts, You’re the kind of fable people don’t believe in, Because how can this world create something that good? You’re every fairytale I believed in growing up Sunshine kid with a personality that rivals The kindest of old souls, Littered with scars of a great warrior, And scars of a lonely worrier With cheeks littered with constellations and stardust, And a heart full of diamonds Sunshine kid with a smile as bright as the sun itself, Who are you? Where are you? You have people wondering a great many mysteries, Are you a legend, a myth Or are you just a human Who happens to posses The soul of a god”