* flowers & blood.

how much of ( insert zodiac ) are you ?

MERRILL:

Aries.  bonfires, competitiveness, hand veins, loud laughs, messy hair, sneaking out at 2AM, abandoned beaches, stray dogs, candle lights, body language, creaking floorboards, ouija boards, having no regrets, karaoke nights out.

Taurus.  house plants, oversized sweaters, soft hands, fuzzy socks, visiting big cities, snoozing your alarm clock, the color yellow, vanilla-scented candles, aloe vera, fruit smoothies, baking cookies, the mom friend, loves the ukulele.

Gemini.  femme fatale movies, in love with female villains, sharp eyeliner, quick-witted, does things out of spite, do no harm but take no shit, in love with dogs, probably cries during sad movies but won’t admit it, easily excited, ripped jeans.

Cancer.  mermaids, easily infatuated by love, smelling flowers, picnics in open fields, gets sad when thinking about the past, impressed easily, daydreaming in class, plucking fresh fruit, loves fashion, would die for their friends.

Leo.  confident in what they do, kill them with kindness, high ponytails, probably wants to visit Paris once, not afraid to tell the truth, in love with cute animals, the one to lift others up, good at teamwork, the warm feeling of summer, dragons.

Virgo.  pastel markers, the smell of lavender, has a welcoming vibe around them, actually organised, scrunchies, neat notes, loves going to museums, probably into photography, neutral colors, handwritten letters, stardust.

Libra.  soft blankets, cuddling the ones you love, always standing up for your friends, hopeless romantic, can be very distant, can be a little dramatic, pretty hair, dresses nicely, tries to be popular on social media, optimistic, humorous.

Scorpio.  cottages in the woods, in love with Greek mythology, vintage t-shirts, really emotional but doesn’t want anyone to know, determined, moonlight, pretty handwriting, into the retro aesthetic, rainy days, doesn’t judge people, cats.

Sagittarius.  always ready for an adventure, street smart, wants to travel the world someday, doesn’t easily trust people, alcohol, paintbrushes, can’t sit still, untied shoelaces, tangled up earphones, blasting music at midnight, eye-gazing.

Capricorn. cold aura, coffee is what keeps them going, probably hasn’t slept in two days, actually a big softie, high-waisted jeans, cute pet videos, small apartments, has too many notebooks, often goes to the library, writing essays.

Aquarius.  loves to paint and do any kind of art, wants to live at the seaside, knows a lot of random facts, shares food, messy notes, bullshits an entire essay, graffiti, has their own distinct style, wants to live their life like they want to.

Pisces.  old teddy bears, unsent love letters, mom-jeans, loves to sing, feels at home by the ocean, writes poetry, hard-workers, always up for deep conversations, probably did the stupid thing, open curtains, a soft breeze.

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   ❛ for what it’s worth, merrill, i’m . . . sorry. about your keeper. ❜

   ( the banality of that statement sits uneasily with him. he’d say more, but carver remembers his first year in kirkwall after — well. after. words didn’t help, and neither did drink or company, or being ran so ragged by meeran that carver’s thoughts were a tired flush of black behind his eyelids every time his aching shoulder blades hit the wooden pallet in gamlen’s hovel. he wishes he knew what to offer, how to assist, but carver knows so little about the dalish still, and understands even less than that. ) 

   ❛ did you get to — i’m not sure if there are certain rites for dalish when they pass, but, ❜ he kneads the back of his neck with a disquieted hand, voice soft but earnest. ❛ we never got to burn bethany. i regretted that for a long time. ❜

        `   it’s alright, carver. it’s not your fault.   ❜  

        here,  it rises:  an anxious thudding in her chest,  something coiling  &  uncoiling darkly in the pit of her stomach.  the idea of speaking about the keeper only days after has her hesitate  —  too soon, will it ever not feel like this?  —  &  she twists her hands roughly,  wincing only slightly though her fingers ache.  how could it not be her fault,  after all?  time after time,  friend after friend  —hadn’t they all warned her?  merrill understood the consequences of her decisions,  &  yet  —what a fool she was to believe that she would be different,  more careful.  no,  she thought somberly,  no,  it’s my fault.

        grief clasps her tongue  &  she swallows thickly,  lips pressing into a thin line. it felt odd to her,  now,  that it would be carver she spoke about the keeper with,  when only before their talks had been light,  if not a bit awkward.  it was unexpected,  really,  how heavy the words had come between them,  pangs of regret & guilt occasioned thusly (  though she knows he only wants to help  ).  `   dalish burials are very beautiful,  but i .. i didn’t get to see her’s.  the keeper’s,  i mean.   ❜   she remembers,  then,  the way her remaining clanmates had shunted her away after merrill  &  hawke had emerged from sundermount,  and she knew that her name would not pass their lips when it came to wishing life amongst those that still remained.

► NAME: merrill. ► NICKNAME: mer, daisy, kitten. ► GENDER: female. ► ROMANTIC  ORIENTATION: biromantic grey-asexual. ► PREFERRED  PET  NAMES: n/a. ► RELATIONSHIP  STATUS: single, not really much of a mingler??

► FAVORITE  CANON  SHIP( S ): obviously some of my favorites are carver/merrill & hawke/merrill ( primarily blue hawke ), the two ‘canon’ ships she really has. ► FAVORITE  NON-CANON  SHIP( S ): i have an immense love for isabela/merrill, whICH I WOULD LOVE TO WRITE AGAIN! also ahvir/merrill is one of my favs <3 ► OPINION  ON  TRUE  LOVE: she believes in it  &  a small part of her yearns to experience it, but she’s come to terms with the fact that she may not ever find someone who will love her in such a way. ► OPINION  ON  LOVE  AT  FIRST  SIGHT: merrill experiences a lot of small puppy love crushes  &  many of them are merely idolization, so she understands she hasn’t really experienced it. she’s a bit skeptical of the concept, but she thinks it’s an absolutely beautiful idea. ► HOW  ‘ROMANTIC’  ARE  THEY: she’s ... somewhat romantic? she can be clumsy  &  unsure of her courting attempts, and sometimes she’s not all the best at flirting or suave or what have you. by nature, she’s romantic; she’s kind, empathetic, loving,  &  she wants the absolute best for her partner. she’s not ‘romantic’ in the traditional sense, but it’s clear she has a romantic soul (  if that makes .. any sense  ). ► IDEAL  PHYSICAL  TRAITS: she doesn’t care about one’s outer appearance; there are some people she’s faintly afraid or weary of at first glance, but she’s quick to warm up to them regardless. she’s never been one to nitpick based on physical traits. ► IDEAL  PERSONALITY  TRAITS: kindness, patience, and tolerance are the Pillars of Gaining Her Love; respecting others  &  especially her will definitely win her over. ► UNATTRACTIVE  PHYSICAL  TRAITS: none! ► UNATTRACTIVE  PERSONALITY  TRAITS: cruelty, condescension, bigotry, aggressiveness, etc. are all major romantic turn-offs for her. ► IDEAL  DATE: she LOVES walking through forests or even through kirkwall; picnics under the vhenadahl; studying artifacts together/having introspective  &  academic conversations; even just sitting shoulder-to-shoulder in silence can be wonderful for her. ► DO  THEY  HAVE  A  TYPE: she’s typically attracted to those who are stronger  &  heroic (  carver  &  hawke respectively  ),  +  those who are incredibly kind  &  self-sacrificing. ► AVERAGE  RELATIONSHIP  LENGTH: given that she hasn’t had very many relationships, short. she’s too consumed in her work with hawke/the eluvian/the alienage to really dedicate anytime to pursuing romances  &  even then, she’s very tentative on actually initiating anything. it really comes down to her own self-image  &  work getting in the way,  &  the idea that her problems will become the problems of the person she’s with. ► PREFERRED  NON-SEXUAL  INTIMACY: cuddling, holding hands,  &  bathing. ► COMMITMENT  LEVEL: commitment to her crushes is ... very low. she’s convinced that a long-lasting relationship will only come very later in her life,  &  perhaps only with someone she knows will support her through anything. in relationships (  if made they make it to the point of it being official  ), she will be very committed; she’s loving in nature  &  is easily attached to those she knows will love  &  support her. ► OPINION  OF  PUBLIC  AFFECTION: she’s fine with it! she doesn’t think much about it most of the time, and will hold her S.O.’s hand or call them pet names while they’re in public; she doesn’t necessarily see anything wrong with putting her love for another on display. ► PAST  RELATIONSHIPS: mahariel was her sorta-girlfriend during her childhood  &  before she left for the wardens.

ofthemoons:

Macbeth:

the howl of wolves. moonless nights. dirt under fingernails. stained silk. chattering teeth. voices hoarse and cracked. rotting fruit. echoing drums. dry heaving. hanging cobwebs. stifling humidity. bloodshot eyes. the roughness of rusted steel. wild rosebushes. muscle cramps. the sound of splintering wood.

A Midsummer Night’s Dream:

crackling fires. ivy crawling on stone. the faint music of running water. petrichor. dirty, bare feet. tattered clothing. thistledown. wilted wildflower crowns. late evening birdsong. curling leaves. a symphony of croaking frogs. drifting feathers. the eerie sound of windchimes at night. humming bees. beds of clover.

Romeo and Juliet:

warm golden lamplight. worn shoes. crumbling brick walls. whispered poetry. embroidered satin. cool, hazy mornings. tousled hair. rosewater. flushed cheeks. distant orchestras. unfinished marble statues. cobblestone streets. loose threads. ink smudged on parchment. tapping fingers. dust illuminated by sunlight. poison vials.

Hamlet:

shattered glass. a cluster of fraying ribbons. unanswered knocks on doors. lingering dampness. white noise. inexplicable drafts. migraines. bleeding ears. the taste of metal. reflected mirrors. dry, cracked lips. the sound of tearing paper. fogged windows. memories of dreams. tarnished silver. protruding veins.