yours.

crazy, how one thing can change so much. if i would have told you earlier what i felt maybe you would be by my side in this lonely moment. but i didn't. and that's the worst.

listening to your heartbeat and looking into your eyes are the best feelings i ever had and it hurts that i'll never experience that again.

i'll never gibe up on you, you'll always be my number one, my first choice, my first thought in the morning, my universum, my last thought before i fall asleep. you're my everything and i hope you'll understand that.

i look at the stars and all i want is being happy. happy with you. but i know you don't care about me anymore and i don't know why. and that's the thing that hurts the most.

i never thought that i could be like that, i can't even recognize myself. i changed. a lot. i'm sitting in class or at home and all i can think of is you. you're my only thought. this emptiness is so violent.

it seems like your actions doesn't fit to your words, everything is still confusing but no matter what i can't get enough of you.

it's like i can't get away from you and everything is pushing me towards you. there's something special that you have making it so hard.

all these thoughts and feelings are so overwhelming but in a way that i think i'm suffocating. and nothing or nobody can ever stop it.

you're not the right person for me and i should have realized that way earlier. you're not the one that helps me getting up again when i feel like i'm drowning. you aren't the one who would do everything for me. you aren't the one i can trust 'cause i know that you never keep secrets by yourself.

something changed, my mind is completly confused. your touches feel different, your kisses feel different, your eyes look different. everything is different to what it was.

all these stars shine so bright but none of them shine as bright as your smile was when you walked through the door. i can't even tell when that changed into that cold feeling and these doubts.

you hurt me a lot but you didn't even notice and that's what makes me wondering whether i'm worth anything or not.

it breaks me to look back to the past, everything was beautiful, so tell me why. why did you end my happiness and replaced it with pain and misery?

i'm so confused what to do because i always want to do my best and be myself but i know that's not enough, i just lost myself.

maybe i'm hiding my feelings but maybe it's way easier than showing them to others. even if i know that you're not feeling the same.

you can treat me bad and i can never be mad at you. i know that i'm not perfect but i also know that you are.

maybe it's wrong to have such a relation to you right now but i need your touches and your affection and nothing else matters.