in my head

He may never understand, but my new guides; these little angels have shown me the true meaning of unconditional love. They see who I am inside and they encourage me to continue growing into my higher self. Leaving Milo and the entourage of pain in the past. Is it time to wake up already !?

Today, I stepped into something new. Seemed goopy, watery and wild, I smelled the roses through my smile. A smile I haven’t felt in years, came through and all of a sudden; was gone in a snap. Clarise and I through a portal into fractals of light and color. There were these little creatures that led me to my own studio. ‘You deserve to be celebrated, Ella!’ They shouted to me. I think I’m starting to understand why I was put here; not to suffer but to recognize the catalyst to everything in my life expanding. Milo claims to know me when he hasn’t even met himself. Who am I staying inside of something that is holding me back, not down ? …..

Wondering where we went wrong this time....Not a lot on my mind today except for why was it us .....?

You guys…I’ve been feeling weird lately….underwater almost. like something new is about to happen. I think often about what my life would be life if I hadn’t agreed to move in with a man who wants to make all of my decisions for me. I suppose it stems from my childhood and my father being absent in all of the lessons I needed most. I am working on healing myself while I give a man who deserves only a second chance, four then five and where are we now? ~ stuck in confusion~