Elowen

I just always feel like I’m bothering people or being annoying, and sometimes it gets in my head more than I’d like to admit.

Yk what? I’ll be the first to admit it. Yes, I’m in high school, and yes, I’ve started watching Gacha Life again in the last couple months. When I was younger, I used to watch Gacha all the time, and apparently my phase is back. And lowk? I have no shame in my game. The stories? Fire. The singing battles? Fire. The react videos? FIRE!!!! It’s all so entertaining and somehow manages to take up massive chunks of my time 🥹

I have these two friends on here and I think they’re the sweetest people I’ve ever met online Like they’re both so understanding and always willing to listen. They’re so wise. And kind 🥹

Tmrw I’m hanging out with two girls I recently became friends with and I’m actually gonna pee myself, I’m so scared 😭

Is anyone else genuinely afraid to try new foods? Sometimes I’ll try something new and even if I actually like it, I’ll still spit it out because I get so anxious over trying it. Other times I’ll cry before I even try the food, or I just can’t bring myself to do it at all. I feel crazy sometimes because it seems like nobody else is like this. I have a group of foods I know I like, and I basically eat those same foods over and over just in different forms. When it comes to trying something new, sometimes I can barely take a bite before panicking and spitting it out. Sometimes I just cry over it and I genuinely don’t understand why.

I’m actually so sick of her ignoring me or not responding to my texts. I wish I wasn’t so forgiving and would just tell her it’s not fine, because we’ve had the same conversation over and over about how she can’t keep ignoring me. Then she’s good for a couple weeks, and somehow we always end up right back at square one. I just really don’t get it. “I was with family.” Okay… so was I, and I still responded. “Sorry, I was at practice.” Okay, then just tell me that? Being active on social media but not responding to my texts. It just gets to a point. Idk maybe I’m the problem for just wanting her to communicate