Finally found a voice... finally I could unbite my tongue and be honest about how I felt... and then I got blocked, I mean I know it's no great loss but there's still so much thats not been said. The result? A lack of sleep and ME feeling guilty over delivering some home truths and just like that there it is again... someone else occupying space in my head and living there rent free. It's sad how 2 people who were once so close can grow this far apart when there's so much that should have been the driving factor in an amicable relationship. I want to say I'm sorry, I want to say that once you was the only one who got me, one of the few people I truly trusted and felt free to be myself around, I want to be someone who you can talk to or who's company you enjoyed, I want to tell you that actually I do still care and that I always will, I want to say that I'm hurting because I miss the you that you used to be and the you that I know you can be, but the opportunity for me to be sincere is not there... so now I'm left feeling like I wish I hadn't opened my mouth, clearly speaking up for yourself gets you nowhere.
