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sorry, i was gone for a few days. i visted my best friend to clear my head, or something like that.  i deleted my grandmas phone number yesterday bc i didn’t want it to upset me when i see it, it’s been a week since she is gone. on my way home i passed the hospital she got taken to. a lot of things are now reminders for me and i don’t like that. funeral will be held on 29.05, i don’t know how long i will be there but afterwards there is a family dinner with a bunch of people i don’t know. i don’t think it will be giving me any comfort or favors so if needed i will just leave early.  last time i saw my grandma was 24.04 if i remember correctly, i think ants bit me on my way home then, i was supposed to see her last week but i was too late. it all feels so weird and unreal.

i was hoping to get back to this blog but after dealing with my mom's hospital stay for almost 3 months, once more i unfortunately now lost a family member.

we are really in a tight spot right now, i could use some work ;_; inflation is terrible and bills are just more and more expensive.