the older Allen

I thank Cardell with a smile for the bread but to stop fighting too. I start eating and quite surprisingly, it was a feast. I was starting to feel a bit better as my belly was getting full. I let the boy talk and look at Elijah putting sand on the fire. I grin, proud of him that he thought of that. I was sure I had to explain why we shouldnt put water on the fire

When I saw that look in his eyes, I knew it was  a little bit of a challenge. It would have bothered me yesterday, but now I’ve realized what we have to do. I can’t just be this fucken wussy anymore, trying to save everyone I saw. I had to be ruthless to help the people that meant the most to me. I smirk back, the same one I always give ‘em  before a big game. I went back to eating my bread, I still didnt want to eat that disgusting looking thing.

  I let the boy making the cooking part as I did the fire. This was weird. The girl was making the fire and going t grab oyster and the boys were cooking. the world was upside down. I didnt want to tell the boy taht their fake cheer up was a waste of time. We wont make it to the end us three. and I was maybe the onl one here not wishing it to happen

As  Elijah cooked the food I ruffled through my bag for the loaf of bread. We still did have all this food, and we aren’t going to be in the arena long anyway. Might as well make the meal a good none. I pull the loaf out and divide it into 3 pieces. Handing one to Amley and throwing one at Elijah.  I look back over to Am and she has a sad look on her face. No doubt ignoring what we had to say. She was putting herself down again.  

I remove the fish from the fire and place the empty shells of the oyster dirty side down to make an approximate plate to put the fish on. "There's nothing like a good almost looking like a plate thing." I say, cutting the fish with my katana. "That's a really overkill knife to cut a poor fish" I think out loud. Once I finish cutting it, I look at Carr and Am. "I don't think we can actually lift it now... so I'd suggest we just kind of pick from the fish and they oysters! Lunch's ready kids" I say with a benevolent smile.

I roll my eyes, a bit amused but still trying to get serious. «You should have boys.. When I wont be around what will yuo do» I said as if I knew I wouldnt make it. 

I look up at Amley, her words again bringing herself down. I hated it. “Thats won’t be a problem, cause I’m with you till the end” I say giving her a confident smile and sly wink. She can’t think like that, not in the arena. 

I frown at Amely saying how she woudln't survive and that we would have to deal without her. "What are you talking about?! You're the one that has the most survival skills. We couldn't do it without you. Look at us: two dudes who can't even light a fire." I say, trying to make her smile. I hated the fact that she tough about this. It wasn't the time to think negatively. 

I walk over to her as she grabs the stones. “Well if I didnt go to the weapons station, you wouldnt have anyone to protect you” I said smiling. ” I mean look at this guy, can’t even open an oyster” I say as Elijah attempts to open the first one. When she sparks the stones a small spark comes up, i blow. Nothng happens. She tries again and I blow. Nothing. 

I give Carr a glare as he talks about my oyster opening skill and, when I finally get to open the oyster, trow him the part that had no animal in it. A smile light up my face and I burst in laughter. This done, I go back to my oyster opening. Once I had understood how I was suppose to open them, it was pretty easy. There was this whole somewhere near a spongy place and this was where the tip of my blade was suppose to do. After that, I only had to twist the blade and the shell would open.

«awh! yeah! Nice catch Ely!» I said with a big grin just to see his gaze on me

I heard Elijah cheer as he caught a fish. I turn around and see him raise it victoriously. Now I need to prove I can do better. Ill chop this tree down. I steady the axe to the tree directly in the spot I struck earlier. I raise the axe big swinging it across a hard THUD, almost there. One more hard swing and the tree CRACKS the tree falls back and hits the floor the tree falls to the bushes making barley above a shout of noise, the leaves as cushions. I smile triumphantly. “Yeah but did you take down a tree?” I say pointing toward it

I see Amely get out of the water and I do the same. I was cold now and we had enough food to have a great meal. Stepping on dry sand, I pick the fish I caught earlier and open its belly before taking out the nasty things we couldn't eat. "You've taken down a tree, that's true. But can you eat it?" I ask joking. Starting a fire uh.. I couldn't do it.  I had flint stones tough and handed them to Amely after taking them out of the bag. "Can you do this? I'll open the oysters?" 

I saw Cardel face and I wonder if I was too hard on him. Probably. I felt bad suddenly. I just didnt like to see him eat strawberries as I was freezing my ass off in this fucking cold water. Okay Amely. Breath. He’s doing something now. Just breath and relax.

"Sounds like a plan to me" I stretched out a bit. I walk back over to the nearby trees ready to cut that tree down. It was flimsy as hell, so itll go down good. I find the tree with the deep cut through it, here it is. 

I still walk in the fishes' direction, silently, not caring to pick oysters with now. Raising my katana high in the air, I strike with a quick blow, but not quick  enough to stab anything. "Dammit!" I murmur, walking were the fish had swam to. This time, I stab quickly and successfully catch one. "Oh yeah!" I say, happy as I wave my katana in the air. "Looks like we'll also eat fish for dinner!" I exclaim myself, happy that I succeeded in my quest. I walk back to the shore and put the fish on the sand before emptying my pockets. I'd wash the fish later and empty it when we'd be ready to cook it.

They were right only strawberriers are bad for you, i need meat. Amleys comment catches me by surprise. I guess I should try and help them out. It was my meal too after all. ” Alright then should I get some wood or something? Cause i dont wanna go in there.” I shiver at the thought.

I laugh a bit. Between Elijah being a goofy and Cardell joining him made me feel so much better. I suddenly remeber why we were together. Why we were friend. The stress and the arena might have drove us appart but things like this proev that we were stronger than fear.

They bot made fun of me but I kept my smile on. At least i wasnt getting my ass frozen off.. I shrieked when the water hit me. I was acting like a little schoolgirl huh? I just laugh it off, I’m glad things arent changing between us. When Elijah asked em to build a fire i realized there was one problem, I had no idea how. I worked with wood all my life, but tell me to set fire to it without using a lighter and I’m useless. Why I didnt go to that station was beyond me. So I just had to come up with an excuse. Thats when I noticed the smoke pillar in the distance. Perfect. “No can do Captain, unless you want every tribute in the place coming for us I say pointing toward the smoke.

I nodded. It made sense not to build a fire after all. That one was pretty visible and we didn't especially wanted to be seen from that far. "You're probably right." I said, still looking down. When Amely caught the first oyster, I smiled. "Great! I just have to catch some too!" I said, glad to know what it looked like. It wasn't too long before my toe landed on one and I gladly brought it out of the water, proud of myself. Putting it in my pocket, I continued to look for them and it wasn't too long until I found a second one. Raising my head, I looked at Cardell eating his strawberries. 

We start walking and I was wondering if mom, dad and buzz were watching. I wonder what they talk or think of us. I am sure mom is happy Elijah is around. I am anyway. 

Amleys small cheek kiss caught me by surprise, buts seeing her blush put a smile on my face. She always made me feel better, Amley just knew how to make me forget the bad. When she says fuck thats just a shocker. “Excuse me Little Amley, you shouldn’t be using those kinds of words. It’s very fucken uncalled for.” I say hoping to earn a smile. I take my shoes off and let the water wash over my feet. No kidding it was freezing. I step back a bit so the water can’t reach me.

Finally on shore, I remove my shoes and look at Amely entering the water, ignoring on purpose the kiss I had just witnessed. As she swears, I take a falsely offended face. "Watch your language young girl!" I say, taking a really deep voice, before laughing as Cardell adds in a joke.

I give him an appologetic smile when I called him Ely. It came out of my mouth like an old memory. It almost felt home for a minute. Him looking at me like that. Just like when we start oru memorable fight in the mud. «Probably.» I said taking the water and drinking a bit. I open the pringle bottle and give him some chips, taking some for me. «Well beside fish, there’s mussel and oyster. It depend of the water there is. Mussel dont live in salty water.»

I can't help but smile back at her. That smile... it looked so much like mom's. He calling my Ely only brought me back home for a second. Until my look went back to the sea. I was now back in the arena. There is no such thing as a sea in 12 and this alone was enough to make me realize there was so little time to smile now. I eat the chips she gave me and nod at her answer. 

No more shadows anymore|| The Allen

I was glad to stop running and sat in the grass, a few step away from Cardell. He seemed like he needed time for himself and I could understand. The fallen could be tough for anyone. Digging in my bag, I took out the bottle of water I had already started and drank a few sips before almost handing it to Amely. I say almost because before I let her grab for the bottle, she called me Ely and I gifted her with a dark look, a wince and taking back my bottle. I hated that nickname.

The announcements came at me by suprise. I grabbed the towels and walked over to see the deaths. I needed to find out if Sam was there. Sebastion, good riddance. Sterling, oh shit Levi! I know they were gonna stick together. Lura was the last. It takes me by surprise more than the others. Serah was in her group, did she kill her? No they were best friends they couldn’t have. But I know nothing, im just glad to here Sams safe.  When the danger zones come, elijah tells us to go and I agree with him more.

I look around. There a pretty spot full of bushes that would be enough to hide us... the sea's really close to us, but I personally don't know how to fish or what's edible in salt water. Amely could know tough. I point at the bushes. "Maybe we could set camp in there. There's still sun, so if we manage to catch... birds or something like this, we could cook it and rest for a while.

I let Cardell take the content of the cabinet and as I open my mouth to speak, the fallen announcement is up. I walk to the window followed by Amely, curious to see who had died today. The first face to show up was Sebastian's: "He's always been a little shit... I can't say I'm especially sad for him.." I comment, looking at Am and Carr. Then, Starling appears. She was a sweet girl, but I never really talked to her. Lura was the last one to appear. I was surprised to see her there that fast. She had had a 9 in private training after all. "And this is why those scores meant nothing..." I murmured to myself, turning away from the window. 

  I frown. Not understanding where the well we were. I walk toward the table, seeing board and games. After making sure there was no one i motion the guys to come in.