As most of you know by now, Chester Bennington of Linkin Park has committed suicide in his home. It brings me much sadness to have found this out when I logged into Facebook this morning. I never saw it coming. But that’s how it mostly is, you get no warning.
Linkin Park, Chester’s voice, their lyrics, it changed my life. Their music got me through very difficult times in my life growing up. If you look at me now, you probably wouldn’t even think I had a bad life growing up. But oh are you wrong, I was bullied; at school and at home, t @ here were a few times in my life I contemplated on taking my life to end it all. I wanted to take the easy way out and I wasn’t thinking about the people who I would leave behind, the ones who did love me, I didn’t think about anything but that I would not have to endure any more pain in my life is I simply just ended it all on my own.
My grandfather and music helped me out of that depression I was so badly fighting. I developed an eating disorder, I was too afraid to do anything else so I starved myself slowly until I was just skin and bones. If I didn’t have music or my grandfather’s love, I wouldn’t be here today. I had Linkin Park and many other artist, I don’t know if singers know how much of an impact their songs make to some people, but it helped me a lot, enough that I’m still alive today and having my son live life to its fullest swith me.
Whenever I hear about someone hanging them self, it hits me hard. My Grandfather committed suicide by hanging. So it hits me whenever I hear that someone I know had taken that path because they couldn’t think of another way out of their darkness.
You have to think about the people you’re leaving behind, you have to get help, you have to find things hat make you happy and do it every day, you have to think positive, you have to get rid of anything that’s negative in your life, you have to live, for you and for those who love you deeply. You have to believe that something great will happen, it may take time but it will happen.
I’m glad I sticked around longer. I got blessed with a little human and I’m much more happier these days. I don’t want to ever take my life for granted because I learn how precious it is and it can be taken from me any moment, so living my life to the fullest and being happy is my ultimate goal in life.
It gets better, please stay around for it.
theartofmadeline
romaincrisis
kianamaiart
andulkaphoto
gummygunk
