* PURE / GREENTHUMB

 “ this isn’t a death, but a rebirth. from your remains , new life will grow. as it always has. new life that brings a balance to the cosmos. ”

*   warning   :   may  contain  spoilers  for  episodes  one  through  ten .

‘  if  you  were  me ,  you  wouldn’t  be  such  a  fucking  asshole .  ’

‘  the  world  out  there  has  teeth  and  it  is  hungry  and  it  is  stupid  and  it eats  and  eats  mindlessly .  ’

‘  you  listen  to  your  gut .  even  if  it  makes  them  hate  you .  ’

‘  i  am  a  dream  and  so  are  you  and  so  are  we .  ’

‘  you  are  a  looker ,  aren’t  you ?  ’

‘  honey ,  someone’s  in  the  house .  ’

‘  i’m  dreaming ,  right ?  ’

‘  i  just  need  a  little  time  away .  it’s  nothing  more  than  that .  ’

‘  you’re  saying  it  was  an  accident ,  so  you  accidentally  put  your  hand  through  a  mirror ?  ’

‘  i’m  scared .  that’s  all  i  am .  there  is  nothing  else .  i’m  only  scared .  ’

‘  do  you  think  there’s  something  wrong  with  me ?  like ,  really  wrong ?  ’

‘  it’s  alright ,  sugar .  it’s  just  a  dream  —  just  a  screaming  meemie .  ’

‘  we  yield  to  it  or  we  fight  it ,  but  we  cannot  meet  it  halfway .  ’

‘  i  seldom  am  well  behaved .  ’

‘  i  enjoyed  the  conversation ,  but  i’m  gonna  say  goodnight .  ’

‘  did  you  just  punch  me  in  the  boob ?  ’

‘  just  enjoy  me .  i’m  loving  you .  ’

‘  i  wouldn’t  have  changed  a  thing .  i  need  you  to  know  that .  ’

‘  forgiveness  is  warm  like  a  tear  on  a  cheek .  ’

‘  i  loved  you  completely  and  you  loved  me  the  same .  ’

‘  that’s  all .  the  rest  is  confetti .  ’

‘  forgive  a  girl  for  being  lonely .  ’

‘  there’s  nothing  sadder  than  a  cold  bed .  ’

‘  journey’s  end  when  lovers  meet .  ’

‘  journeys  don’t  end ,  not  if  you  love  someone .  they  don’t  end  at  all .  ’

‘  probably  best  you  didn’t  say  anything  to  them .  ’

‘  i’m  asking  you  to  love  me  hard  for  the  next  few  minutes .  ’

‘  i’m  gonna  jump  and  i’m  asking  you  to  hold  my  hand  while  i’m  falling .  ’

‘  i  have  something  that  i  have  to  tell  you ,  but  i  need  you  to  remember  when  i  do  that  i  love  you .  ’

‘  i  wish  i  would’ve  loved  you  better .  ’

‘  pandas  don’t  like  macaroni .  ’

‘  i’m  just  floating  in  this  ocean  of  nothing  and  i  wonder  if  this  is  it ,  this  is  what  death  is .  ’

‘  i  wonder  if  this  is  what  death  is ,  just  out  there  in  the  darkness ,  just  darkness  and  numbness  and  alone .  ’

‘  i  wondered  if  that’s  what  they  felt ,  just  numb  and  nothing  and  alone .  ’

‘  he  was  a  light  in  the  darkness .  he  was  a  life  preserver  in  the  ocean .  ’  

‘  i  reached  for  him  because  i  had  to  feel  something .  i  had  to  feel  anything .  ’

‘  god ,  i’m  so  glad  i  did  it  though .  thank  god  it  worked .  ’

‘  i  felt  scared .  so  fucking  scared .  ’

‘  honestly  i  had  to  do  it  because  it  felt  better  than  feeling  nothing .  ’

‘  that  thorough  fucking  shame  was  so  much  better  than  that  horrible  empty  feeling .  ’

‘  you  have  to  live .  ’

‘  i  don’t —  i  don’t  know  how  to  do  this  without  you .  ’

‘  i  learned  a  secret  :  there  is  no  without .  i  am  not  gone .  i  am  scattered  into  so  many  pieces ,  sprinkled  on  your  life  like  new  snow .  ’

‘  when  we  die ,  we  turn  into  stories  and  every  time  someone  tells  one  of  those  stories  it’s  like  we’re  still  here .  ’

‘  we’re  all  stories  in  the  end .  ’

‘  you’re  supposed  to  protect  me ,  but  you  say  the  meanest  things  to  me  when  i  try  to  tell  you  things .  ’

‘  that  was  really  wild  stuff .  ’

‘  that  was  really  wild  stuff  considering  you  were  asleep  for ,  what ,  like…  ninety-nine  percent  of  it ?  ’

‘  i’m  sorry .  i  should  have  made  more  of  an  effort  with  you .  ’

‘  you  tried  the  best  that  you  could .  i  should’ve  met  you  halfway .  ’

‘  people  fuck  up .  i  guess  you  don’t  get  that  —  you  really  don’t  get  it  until  you  fuck  up .  really  fuck  up .  ’

‘  i  felt…  nothing .  just  nothing .  and  it  spread  everywhere  in  me ,  this  nothing ,  until  i  couldn’t  feel  anything  anymore .  i  was  just  this  dark ,  empty  black  hole .   ’

headcanon meme  //  always accepting !!

    OKAY , SO     ord feels really close to  all  of the elders , despite never having had particularly intimate relationships with most of them. they’re the only beings who share remotely similar histories and experiences to him. there’s an unspoken solidarity there  ——  which is perhaps one of the most important things in his life. it  keeps him going  .  as one of the more mild-tempered and generally moral elders , he usually ends up on the ‘ good ’ side of his brethren and is generally adored by them. he doesn’t always agree with some of their perspectives and practices (  for example , he condemns en dwi’s contest of champions  ) , but he’s always there for them when they need him.

     and now , here are some specific headcanons for a few of elders (  which wow , can u believe , are all  our  muses ?  ) :

1. the grandmaster

     ord holds en dwi in very high regard. as one of the older members of their order , he has a certain amount of life experience (  and  POWER  ) that is respectable. the grandmaster’s quirkiness is something that he understands  ——  a point that endears en dwi to ord. he’s not necessarily someone he would seek advice from , but there are certain matters of cosmic nature that he knows he can rely on en dwi to provide sound counsel for. as stated before , there are things he does that ord doesn’t agree with , and a sneaky , sweet comment will sometimes be made to indicate as much. also , ord isn’t very fond of the immortality stunt that en dwi pulled ,  but more on that later  !!

2. the collector

     in all honesty , despite loving taneleer to the farthest moon and back , ord is quite  INTIMIDATED  by him. he has an absolute fear of disappointing him , and what the consequences will be if he does. still , taneleer is probably the one that ord would most often solicit personal advice from. he knows he’ll receive some much needed tough love , and can trust him to not care enough to lie.

3. the stranger

     although they duked it in the past ( causing them to lose possession of two of the infinity stones ) , ord holds no ill will towards the stranger. if given the opportunity , he would very much like to hear his side of the conflict , and regardless of whether or not he agrees with it , would apologize for his own actions. ord doesn’t like for conflicts to fester and turn into grudges , and the thought of any of the elders being angry with him would totally eat him alive. 

4. the runner

 “ this isn’t a death, but a rebirth. from your remains , new life will grow. as it always has. new life that brings a balance to the cosmos. ”

     my thoughts are stars i can fathom into constellations

                                                                                                                                          (  temp dash only.  )                                                                                                                              loved && penned by kaddie.                                                                                                                headcanon—based ; mcu compliant.

 “ this isn’t a death, but a rebirth. from your remains , new life will grow. as it always has. new life that brings a balance to the cosmos. ”

     my thoughts are stars i can fathom into constellations

                                                                                                                                          (  temp dash only.  )                                                                                                                              loved && penned by kaddie.                                                                                                                headcanon—based ; mcu compliant.