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“TO BE ON THE PODIUM FOR THE FIRST TIME AS A RACE DRIVER IS LIKE A CHILDHOOD DREAM COME TRUE.”

"Let me tell you something regarding the isolate issue (Kris's whereabouts) it's not convenient for me to answer you. But I do care about his family so I've already contacted Aunty (Kris' mom) and his family and I'll protect them so you can rest assured." "Thank you, thank you for supporting us, supporting him, being there for him, we miss him, we love him. I know for a fact that you know, I stand firm to this that he did not do those things and I believe him, so thank you for being there."

Ray said that Kris got this tattoo for Meigeni, and also actually encouraged him to get his first tattoo. Ray met Kris in 2020 and all they talked about was tattoos, Ray said "the tattoo is so cute" so he decided to get this tattoo too. He kept the promise he had made to Kris. When they met in 2020 they ended up talking until nearly morning, Kris was so into the idea that he wanted to go to a tattoo shop right then, it was like at 3-4am. Ray was hesitating though and ended up passing out on him since he had work the next day.

Ray talked about the MV for Throwback. It was in 2020 when he met Kris at a race track in CA. Kris told Ray to go be his copilot, something Ray had no experience in and Kris was already a pro. When Kris drove 3 laps, Ray thought he was fine and that it was over, but Kris kept driving until Ray got dizzy, he was so dizzy that he passed out several times. Every time Kris would see Ray he would pass out he asked him, "you okay bro? you good bro?" and Ray said "yeah yeah". Kris kept driving until the 10th lap. Ray looked like couldn't take it anymore, so Kris stopped before Ray actually passed out.

Ray shared how Kris' biggest dream was to make it to the NBA but it was too difficult, so when Kris returned to Vancouver from Guangzhou he focused on practicing dancing seriously then he went to an audition and fly to Korea. Later came back to Ray asking if he'd want to give it a try since Ray is 182 cm, so Ray decided to go for it but after waiting in line for three hours without getting anywhere near the audition, he gave up and went back home.

Ray said they didn't get to see each other in person very often, but every time they met, they talked for a long time, like chatterboxes, about everything. Ray was 12 and Kris was 13 when they met at the Guangzhou Sports School, they both came from Vancouver, that's how they started to get to know each other, either by eating McDonald's or KFC, or everything else. They both speak English, Chinese, and Cantonese. They both communicated mostly by email (Kris really loves to use email, they have been online friends for 10 years), Kris even sent a special email to Ray before his debut.

As soon as Ray saw that comment questioning his friendship with Kris, he made it clear that he is his true friend. "Of course I am a real friend, if you don't know me, then you don't know me, that's fine."

I'm as old as you were when I first fell in love with you, pretending to be insensitive as if I were mature and stable, and turning into a cynical and clueless adult. In the past, those words of sentimentality seemed childish and reckless, but they were also full of sincerity and passion, I was too stingy to project even the slightest bit of love to strangers, so I lost all desire and ability to express it. I both envy and sympathize with others as they wandered around in love. Whereas I, from time to time can recall the past without inspiration.

Still often I think of your goodness and my love, and turn myself into the type of person I used to despise most, and find myself ridiculous. But today I absolve and allow myself to become as silly as you are. Weibo doesn't have a reverse chronological view function, so I had to scroll back from the end to the beginning, day after day, year after year, as if little by little you were finally out of my life. You gave it back to me, and I had no choice but to take it all.

I know that your silence is like a distant mountain, and behind the layers of smoke, there is a blazing fire that cannot be heard. In fact, you didn't leave me nothing, you gave me the last connection with the girlhood, You have framed for me a precious void away from the hypocritical truth of reality. You had burned me, given me the most colorful scars and the most gorgeous ruins, and brought me as close to freedom as possible.

I think about you once in a while, in between every happy and sad switch. I actually think about you a lot. We, you know that, don't you. Happy birthday. While you're young, while I remember. I wish you are still willing to cheer up and always have the strength to be tough and light. It will be beautiful after dawn."

For us it's NOVEMBER FOREVER. This day in November is always full of meaning because of you. All day long, I saw many people here in whatever state of mind who were really happy for you.

In the past two years, there have been a lot of changes in everyone's lives, ups and downs, and for me, there have been a lot of ups and downs, and the most troubling thing is that I often get caught up in some kind of self-imposed deadlock that I can't solve, I get lost and numb, thinking about this and that, and to be honest, I feel like a stranger to myself, and I'm far away from it, I feel like I can't do anything to change the situation, and it's hard to know what it's like to be grown up, but every time I think about you, I feel like everything can be dealt with and started over again. It's amazing. It's been over two years since I've seen you, but I feel like I've always been able to feel you through words like 'strong' and 'know your protection', I can really conjure up an image of you.

I can't imagine what kind of spirit you're carrying on with right now, but I do know that you're really strong. I heard a saying today that says you go through a lot in life, and as long as you don't fall, no one can beat you. Brother, happy birthday! We're all waiting for you!"

But today is your birthday, I don't want to mention those painful emotions too much, I hope that today, at least today, the deepest love and the most sincere blessings can go to your side, surround you, protect you.

All these years, all I wanted to say on your birthday was, "Brother, wherever you are, have a happy birthday, be healthy and be safe."

I am always blessing you, always thanking you for your birth, thanking you for your landing. I can't really do anything to help you, I can only pray over and over again, as you struggle to hold on to yourself and run towards freedom, please asking God to keep you as free as possible from the winds and waves, and my heart will always be in the direction of your return, praying that we will meet again.

'If you want to make a bond with someone, you have to take the risk of shedding tears.' But because you are worth it, I'm not afraid of tears, I'm not afraid of another year of missing and waiting, watching countless people and things happen, fighting against time and the side effects of the passage of time - forgetfulness. I think that didn't wear away my love, but I am even more determined, as the years and months pass by, the more I feel that I love you deeply.

Don't give up, I think that if you are still holding on, I can also continue to hold on."

"Happy birthday bro! I still got you, miss you lots"

Kris's handwriting: "To Ray, best bro for life, I got you"

Note: Ray posted a clip of just this pic with Throwback as background sound up to the "wish you right beside me" part. Here's the pic:

"Happy birthday to the boy who is about to celebrate his birthday. A kind boy will surely be treated kindly one day, we are all waiting for the day when the sun shines brightly, thanks to each and every one of you for watching over us, be well everyone!"

a fan also left this comment and here is his reply

👤: "If you have the chance, you must tell him that no matter what time it is, everyone will wait for him to come back and will love him 4ever, he must be strong"

Masong: "I've already brought a message to my younger brother, he's very strong and also knows your protection, thank you guys"

"was thinking bout u lately"

"happy birthday"

"safe and healthy"

"did the wind passing by tell you that there is someone who misses you very much"

"really miss you very much"

"peace and happiness"

"happy birthday, may you be safe and happy. may i see you again"

"want to borrow a star to tell you happy birthday"

"may you be safe and healthy happy and free, may you always have the courage to start over"

"miss you more than ever"

"every year, i used to look forward to today being a weekend so i could get there earlier to see him"

"happy birthday my friend hope you are safe and healthy we meet soon"

"seeing the bright moon alone is like an old friend"

"we have a good time together, hope you are all right, happy birthday & good night scorpio"

"Dear, Today is your birthday May you be from now on Like the eternal moon Like the rising of the sun Like the longevity of the South Mountain Like the luxuriant pine and cypress May you never lack the courage to start over May you keep the determination to fear nothing Soar to the highest sky that the wind blows"

"Happy birthday bro! Miss waking up to random msgs you would send me in the middle of night lol! Miss you like always. ​​​❤"