I want to end my life. I want to end the pain. I want to end my breaking heart. I cannot take it anymore. Constantly I am being told I am in the wrong. I am doing the wrong thing. My emotions always get the better of me. I feel like I am crazy - going insane because people donβt believe me. I have never been listened to or believed. I feel like I need to bang my chest and scream to get my point across but then I just get into trouble. I want to die. I donβt have any aspirations or motivations in this world anymore. I have been crushed every single year since birth. I feel like Iβm constantly being gaslighted. Am I crazy? I ask myself this every day. Are they right? Am I really insane? Should I be locked up and have the key thrown away? I think burying me deep inside the ground would be the best bet at this point because all I do is cause drama for myself and the people around me. Trouble follows me.
I try to be a good person, I really do. I really try, and I want to be a good person. I try to help people every day, buy them gifts, tell them how much I love and appreciate them...nothing is good enough. People choose not to see me past my bad side. Everyone has one but mine sticks out like a sore thumb.
I do not benefit anyone.
I do not serve a purpose on this earth anymore.
I would like to leave.
