「Noblesse」

“Hello, father, or do you still prefer ‘daddy’?” Shub-Niggurath stated, sitting on the couch. “Anyway, before you ask, door was open, so I snuck right in. Though I should say, long time no see? The new dream cycle took me by surprise as it was without warning, this time. Took me a while, to fashion myself a new body for this new dream cycle.” After all, she treats her body like one would a shirt, a new one worn for every reboot, or rather, dream cycle, in fancy speak.

“I am Ruby, yes.” Technically Spoopy Darkness, but halloween was halloween. “Welcome back to the main timeline. Do I need to kick your ass again?”

“….Huh, looks like Blair and I didn’t fix your attitude problems.” Ruby deadpanned. “Oh well, what’s done is done.”

“  where do you get your hope?  what keeps you going during all this?  ”

“  you know,  sometimes you don’t have to find the answers.  i think it can be enough to just admit you’re lost.  for now.  ”

“  sometimes,  i don’t feel like i’m real.  not unless i’m hurting in some way.  it’s not like i want to be in pain,  but i’m just so used to it.  i dunno what to do without it anymore.  ”

“  i just keep hoping that one day i’ll have something else motivating me— something more than stubbornness or spite. i wanna feel like i’m living.  ”

“  i learned the only thing i can believe in is me.  i have faith in myself.  that’s how i survived.  ”

“  i hope you know i’m proud of you.  i’ve seen how hard you’ve been fighting to get where you are.  you might feel stuck,  but you’re not.  you’ve come so far.  ”  

“   when i told you i loved you,  you know i meant that right?  i’m not talking just about all those warm feelings.  i’m talking about putting in the work.  i’m here to stay for the hard parts,  not just the pretty ones.  ”

“   you don’t have to find the perfect words,  just tell me what you’re feeling.  i’m here to listen.  ”  

“  you don’t have to carry it all.  humans aren’t made to be solitary creatures.  i want to help.  all you have to do is ask.  ”  

 “  i know i haven’t always been there in the past,  but i’m here now.  i’m trying.  please,  just let me in.  ”

“  i still care about you,  you know.  i could never stop caring about you.  but we were both drowning.  and one of us had to get out eventually.  ” 

“  i think you’re still my person.  and i’m hoping maybe one day,  i can be yours again too.  ”

“  i’ll still be here when you need me.  that will never change.  ”  

“  i love you.  but i can’t keep watching you destroy yourself.  i can’t sit here and watch that anymore.  it hurts too much.  ”  

“  i already forgave you.  so why can’t you forgive yourself?  ” 

“  it’s not about what you think you do or don’t deserve.  i get to choose who to love.  i’m an adult.  and i can make that decision.  so i’m here to stay.  i’m in this.  ”  

 “  if we’re going to do this again,  you have to promise it will be different.  you have to show me that you’re ready this time.  ” 

“   i don’t know how to make you believe that i can make us work again.  but i’m not going to give up.  i did that once and—  well,  i’m standing here again because it was the wrong choice.  give us another chance.  ” 

“  i’m lost without you.  and i’m not asking you to fix me or be something you’re not.  i’m just asking you to keep being the lighthouse you are just by being you.   and let me be guide myself by it.  ”  

 “   i’ve never been very good at letting go.  and now i feel like there’s too many burdens i’m holding on to and i don’t know how to get rid of them anymore.  ”  

“  why do you feel like you need to punish yourself so much?  ”

“  why do you keep saying that?  you’re not alone.  i’m standing right here.  ”

Ruby waited until the thing was close enough and had formed a shield made out of ki and let it hit herself. Her heels dug into the ground and she was forced back several meters. Deciding to compress another ki sphere, she made sure to give it a flash-bang effect, as well as enough knockback to send the chimera flying into the air.

“Oh haven’t seen her in ages.” Ruby gave a shrug and decided to blink a bit. “My sister’s soul?–Oh yeah, Yang.” How could Ruby forget about her?! “Yeah Lucifer is far too strong it seems. She really one-shot me and all that jazz.” Still, she decided to simply take the map and go to that new house. “There aren’t any rules against flyin’, right?” Oh well, she already took off for the third floor.

“My hair is frazzled. Why did they make barriers again?” Ruby questioned, deciding to take a quick shower and snap her fingers to make her clothing back to normal again. Once that was done, she was about to step out and deadpanned with a cookie in her hand.

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“I promise that there won’t be anything stupid when it comes to your disguise.” Except maybe a handlebar mustache you can add-on. “The only smithy that I can think off the top of my head would be Nian or Operator Vulcan.”

“… I’m not familiar with Nian. Operator Vulcan, the guards sure enjoy talking about her interesting take on metallurgy.”