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PrincelyMagik/HimboKing/Jesse is a toxic individual, and their server Apex HQ is his personal arena for shit stirring: a thread

Update: (Monday, November 2, 2020) he’s since changed his discord to ParanoiaIncarnate#0796 and his tumblr is now HimboKing

Let’s start at the very beginning. About a week ago, Jesse invited me to Apex HQ, immediately obsessed upon meeting me in another server, and introduced me to Apex HQ as “the girl he’s been simping for” and according to Jesse himself and his friends, I was the subject of conversation in several calls, streams, and chats, and members of the server recognized me even though they hadn’t met me

Jesse basically would ask me to show pictures of myself, like selfies and mirror photos of my outfits to the chat and then encouraged other members to comment on my appearance along with him while he called me things like ‘Hot Lady’, and associated most everything about me with my appearance.

other members of the server would speak to me and he’d tell them to stop it or would make them delete messages if they got too flirty for his tastes, even though I hadn’t expressed romantic interest in him whatsoever.

On October 28th, Thursday, he private messaged me

(I attempted to gently reject him and change the subject. This was my second mistake, after allowing myself to be sexualized and degraded)

After this point, Jesse began treating me differently, and essentially ignored me or talked over me. On Friday, after what I thought was a teasing, playful conversation, I left my phone for a short moment to attend to something personal, and Jesse had assumed I went away because of something he’d said bc I jokingly said “nvm Gn!!!” in character as Ferdinand

He privately messaged me and said we need to talk, and while confused, I agreed and asked what was up. He then told me I’d talked over several members of the server, was annoying and an attention whore, and mentioned a conversation and a minor issue I thought had already been resolved and moved past.

I attempted to explain I hadn’t realized I had been ‘problematic’ and tried to apologize and ask questions for my own clarification. I was informed I was guilt tripping and not being genuine.

This private dm was also being screen shared to other mods without my prior consent. (And Jesse intended it to be without my knowledge but I wasn’t dumb enough to not see the chat and that his status said ‘sharing their screen’) and they spent about thirty minutes calling me a liar and a fake and tried to say I was dragging names of other mods. I hadn’t.

I reluctantly agreed to an ultimatum that basically told me to stay quiet unless I could stay ‘on topic’ or I would be banned. They tried to force me into silence, and refused to both listen to my apologies and speak to me privately.

after this, I returned to the chat after a short break and continued like normal, and no one in the chat had been notified of anything I’d supposedly done- yet. I carried on conversation like normal both Friday night and Saturday morning

Early Saturday morning I reached out to another mod privately, and apologized to them. They ss my conversation and forwarded it to Jesse, who messaged me Saturday afternoon.

He sent a private dm telling me to “play nice” and when I said that my conversation with the other mod was none of his business (since it wasn’t in the server) and he then decided I was being “hostile and feigning offense” and he was “tired of my shit”

He then proceeded to try to goad an argument out of me, but by midday Saturday I’d already started receiving information as to what kind of person he is, so when I told him I knew what games he was playing and that his mind games wouldn’t work on me- he jumped straight to insulting me and called me a bitch bc i said it was like the drama I experienced back in high school.

After that, he banned me, sent a violent gif, and told his server they’d confirmed I harassed mods and was a fake individual who lied and faked my whole personality and everything I said- which was absolutely NOT true

This image was sent to me by a friend in the server who has since been banned for defending me.

Several former victims and friends of Jesse have since reached out to me, and confirmed I’m not the only person who has experienced this. In fact, I’m the fourth documented person to have problems with Jesse in Apex HQ alone.

Yesterday, before he blocked me on tumblr as well, I’d made this thread underneath where he advertised Apex HQ to hopefully prevent anyone else from experiencing the hell that is that server as well as ‘friendship’ with Jesse. Someone close to him reached out, only knowing his side of the story, and accused me of lying, with only the ss of the later argument that Jesse had shown them.

I’ve since shown them more of the ss, as well as some other information, and they deleted their reply and made amends, which I’m grateful for. I hope this makes some of the others still in the server realize the truth as well. I’m more than happy to share evidence and proof to anyone who doubts me.

Please. Stop viewing his twitch streams. Don’t join this server. Take away his power over smaller or newer Apex fans. DNI with him if you kin Felix. He will sexualize you because he associates you with Felix.

A final word on everything, now that this mess has finally died down & I’ve taken some time to recharge and fix my mental state

So, hey, I wanted to once again thank everyone who’s given me support, kindness, time, and stood up for me even when I wasn’t looking. I appreciate you. My heart is so full.

Secondly- to everyone who was in the chat that still sides with Jesse or those of you that reached out after my post did numbers and you want to clear your name from posts or lists, I can’t help you. I can’t in good conscience try to fix your reputation when I didn’t call your name out. It’s not something for me or any of the other victims to try and change or fix.

Thirdly- I am moving on now. I can only hope Jesse stops talking about me, grows up, gets help, and moves on too. I no longer want to be the whispered name on everyone’s lips.

And finally, I have my own discord server now! you can pm me for the invite bc I want to keep it controlled and monitored to prevent drama, but if you’re looking for a new home for apex and other stuff, I’m happy to welcome you in.

Thank you again for letting me open up, share my story, and create a space for others to do the same. I hope this fandom learns from the experiences we’ve all shared and becomes a happy place for everyone 🧡

The fluorescent pink convenience store sign made Katsuki’s eyes ache, but he followed his boyfriend into the shop.

Kirishima turned to the cashier and smiled tugging Katsuki along by his wrist to the cosmetics aisle. The nail polish was dirt cheap but Katsuki had to reapply it every time he used his quirk so it only needed to last a day at best.

Katsuki knelt down biting the inside of his cheek while he looked at his options. Orange or black would probably look best.

“Eijirou, orange or b-” Katsuki was cut off by warm lips pressed to his. Not that he was complaining but what the fuck.

“What the fuck?” Katsuki said, repeating his sentiment when Kirishima pulled away.

“Eijirou, you called me Eijirou.”

“Don’t worry I liked it.” Kirishima told him after a prolonged silence.

“Oh really, I couldn’t tell.”

“Asshole.”

So, I want to preface this by saying that callout posts are not my thing. I don’t really intend for this to be a callout post, just something cathartic that I’m doing for myself because I’ve been very quiet about this for a very long time and speaking to it now that I finally feel like I’m not going to be attacked for my experiences is just… really freeing. I got to talk to a few people about what had happened, and already it just made me feel… so much better to share and not be alone and I want to give that to other people that might be feeling the same things as me.

—

I met Jesse while I was having a really hard time in my own life feeling isolated. They seemed understanding, and I fell for it. I said nice things, they suckered me with how seemingly open they were, and so they developed a crush on me. I had no idea, I thought we were friends… but that seemed to turn into something I never wanted it to.

—

Jesse attempted to strongarm me out of my relationship seemingly so that they could date me. -  They would speak over me and instead imply that I was weak and say that talking to me was a waste of time because I wouldn’t leave my relationship. They acted as though my relationship was a personal offense to them and they attacked me so much that I was afraid to even mention my partner at all. I felt as though I had to pretend that entire part of me didn’t exist if I didn’t want to be publicly executed because Jesse constantly brags about how many friends and followers have and jokes about doxing people and so I felt alone in my feelings and like I would be threatened if I tried to speak to anyone about it.

(Parts of the screenshots are blacked out or cropped because they mention my personal trauma.)

In these screenshots, Jesse had accused me of being unable to make my own decisions, trying to gaslight me into thinking my perception of reality had been warped. When I tried to respond lightly and disprove them, they began attacking me and attempting to guilt trip me for this.

Jesse had told me once before that sometimes they could be overbearing and that if I felt that way, I should tell them so they would stop– much like they said in their apology post. I tried… and they attacked me. They outright told me that I was wrong for saying that they were attempting to guilt trip me when they told me that I was a waste of effort to them. They hid behind mental health issues as though that was justification for their behavior. They said that I was lucky to even get a response from them at all.

In this they’re speaking about how it was their “failure” that I’d refused to end my relationship, again, trying to guilt me into a breakup I never wanted. 

My problems feeling isolated gave them the in they needed to continue talking to me. Which they did by waiting for a few days after this conversation and then sending me a random screenshot of porn… which I will not show because it was explicit. I should have ended it there, but I felt guilty for no longer wanting to speak with them since at that point I felt that Jesse’s upset was my own fault.

Jesse then convinced themself, despite my words, that I had ended my relationship and began to flirt with me constantly. Already I was too afraid to correct them, knowing I’d be yelled at like this again and lose the people I had met through them or worse.

—

Jesse tried to strip me of my identity and projected an entirely separate person onto me. - As time went on and Jesse continued to pursue me, they started to make some kind of warped image of me in their mind. Constantly they would misgender me and refer to me with he/him pronouns, though I’d never once introduced myself that way. In some instances during voice chats, they would speak over me to tell other people I used he/him pronouns. On one recent occasion, I corrected them when they once again misgendered me and they became hostile, saying “eat me” and then brushing it under the rug. Immediately after this, they began to speak about my body to other people and when I’d told them to stop, they started to follow me to other channels where I was active in an attempt to flirt with me and then guilt trip me when I didn’t respond to them. They said things like “I can’t tell if Vik is mad at me, it’s making me so anxious. But what can I do?” until I told them their constant misgendering had upset me… and then they proceeded to immediately delete all their messages and mine before I was able to screenshot this, but it was witnessed by a few other server members.

Right after this, they announced sarcastically in all caps that I was a “THEMBO” and then moved on to another conversation… and then began making comments about my body and trying to @ me to flirt with me in other channels. They did apologize after I told them I was upset, for the first time ever using my real name that I had introduced myself to them with. They immediately went back to calling me only Vik after this, so I see it only as a tactic to try to gain my forgiveness. I feel almost certain now that I only received this apology because other people had witnessed the messages they deleted.

They outright refused to call me by my own name, despite knowing it. Instead they, in their words, “force named” me Vik or Viktor. Though this is my screen name, it felt strange and isolating to be one of the only people “force named” while other friends were called by their real names. During a game with some of my personal friends (that they of course belittled me for because they “didn’t think Vik had any friends besides them”), they spoke about how weird it was for my friends to be calling me by my name and how they’d never be doing that. To what end, I don’t know, but these things all combined made me feel like there was some separate person using my screen name and Jesse was constantly pursuing that person that didn’t even exist.

—  

I think ultimately, I was afraid of disagreeing with them. After seeing how they handled having their past friends speak out about them– ostracizing them from an entire community– I was afraid that any slip up I made that offended them somehow would lead them and others that they might rally around them to lash out at me or dox me as they had joked about.

In this instance, someone had tried to call them out for their toxic behavior and their concerning behavior towards minors, but Jesse was quick to shut him down and spin the story into something that seemed like Jesse had been attacked by their own friend. They said things like they couldn’t believe this person had pretended to be their friend for so long just so that he could get dirt on Jesse and lie about them– this was not the case. Jesse had hurt their friend and others and he was trying to make it known. But Jesse only banned him and told everyone not to speak to him. Unfortunately, they successfully vilified him. And then in response to the outrage they’d created, Jesse mentioned knowing his address.

Jesse and another mod then began checking server members’ friends lists for people who had this person as a mutual friend in some kind of weird discord McCarthyism. I was too afraid to speak out about it because he was one of my friends, and I regret that so much. I was one of the people he’d messaged, and I spoke to him a little and it was so easy to see that he wasn’t trying to be harmful, he only wanted to prevent anyone else from getting hurt by Jesse. But I let Jesse scare me into blocking him after they threatened to take some kind of legal action against him.

—

I’m just so happy to see that people have broken through the sway Jesse seemed to have over a community and I finally don’t feel like I’m going to be threatened for sharing these things. Honestly I’m so sorry to anyone that Jesse has ever demonized just for speaking out or just for breaking whatever mold they might have tried to force you into. I’m sorry I ever believed any of their lies about you. Not a single person deserved any of that.

Secondly- I remember seeing how he talked about you in such a degrading, sexually charged way- and how he mentioned your body when you weren’t even present was abhorrent.

I’m so thankful you took the time to reach out to me, too, from a personal standpoint, and I’m always here if you need anything at all. I’m so glad you’re free, I’m honestly in tears right now because I know that this whole ordeal brought you freedom & peace of mind and that to me is what’s most important.

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PrincelyMagik/HimboKing/Jesse is a toxic individual, and their server Apex HQ is his personal arena for shit stirring: a thread

Update: (Monday, November 2, 2020) he’s since changed his discord to ParanoiaIncarnate#0796 and his tumblr is now HimboKing

Let’s start at the very beginning. About a week ago, Jesse invited me to Apex HQ, immediately obsessed upon meeting me in another server, and introduced me to Apex HQ as “the girl he’s been simping for” and according to Jesse himself and his friends, I was the subject of conversation in several calls, streams, and chats, and members of the server recognized me even though they hadn’t met me

Jesse basically would ask me to show pictures of myself, like selfies and mirror photos of my outfits to the chat and then encouraged other members to comment on my appearance along with him while he called me things like ‘Hot Lady’, and associated most everything about me with my appearance.

other members of the server would speak to me and he’d tell them to stop it or would make them delete messages if they got too flirty for his tastes, even though I hadn’t expressed romantic interest in him whatsoever.

On October 28th, Thursday, he private messaged me

(I attempted to gently reject him and change the subject. This was my second mistake, after allowing myself to be sexualized and degraded)

After this point, Jesse began treating me differently, and essentially ignored me or talked over me. On Friday, after what I thought was a teasing, playful conversation, I left my phone for a short moment to attend to something personal, and Jesse had assumed I went away because of something he’d said bc I jokingly said “nvm Gn!!!” in character as Ferdinand

He privately messaged me and said we need to talk, and while confused, I agreed and asked what was up. He then told me I’d talked over several members of the server, was annoying and an attention whore, and mentioned a conversation and a minor issue I thought had already been resolved and moved past.

I attempted to explain I hadn’t realized I had been ‘problematic’ and tried to apologize and ask questions for my own clarification. I was informed I was guilt tripping and not being genuine.

This private dm was also being screen shared to other mods without my prior consent. (And Jesse intended it to be without my knowledge but I wasn’t dumb enough to not see the chat and that his status said ‘sharing their screen’) and they spent about thirty minutes calling me a liar and a fake and tried to say I was dragging names of other mods. I hadn’t.

I reluctantly agreed to an ultimatum that basically told me to stay quiet unless I could stay ‘on topic’ or I would be banned. They tried to force me into silence, and refused to both listen to my apologies and speak to me privately.

after this, I returned to the chat after a short break and continued like normal, and no one in the chat had been notified of anything I’d supposedly done- yet. I carried on conversation like normal both Friday night and Saturday morning

Early Saturday morning I reached out to another mod privately, and apologized to them. They ss my conversation and forwarded it to Jesse, who messaged me Saturday afternoon.

He sent a private dm telling me to “play nice” and when I said that my conversation with the other mod was none of his business (since it wasn’t in the server) and he then decided I was being “hostile and feigning offense” and he was “tired of my shit”

He then proceeded to try to goad an argument out of me, but by midday Saturday I’d already started receiving information as to what kind of person he is, so when I told him I knew what games he was playing and that his mind games wouldn’t work on me- he jumped straight to insulting me and called me a bitch bc i said it was like the drama I experienced back in high school.

After that, he banned me, sent a violent gif, and told his server they’d confirmed I harassed mods and was a fake individual who lied and faked my whole personality and everything I said- which was absolutely NOT true

This image was sent to me by a friend in the server who has since been banned for defending me.

Several former victims and friends of Jesse have since reached out to me, and confirmed I’m not the only person who has experienced this. In fact, I’m the fourth documented person to have problems with Jesse in Apex HQ alone.

Yesterday, before he blocked me on tumblr as well, I’d made this thread underneath where he advertised Apex HQ to hopefully prevent anyone else from experiencing the hell that is that server as well as ‘friendship’ with Jesse. Someone close to him reached out, only knowing his side of the story, and accused me of lying, with only the ss of the later argument that Jesse had shown them.

I’ve since shown them more of the ss, as well as some other information, and they deleted their reply and made amends, which I’m grateful for. I hope this makes some of the others still in the server realize the truth as well. I’m more than happy to share evidence and proof to anyone who doubts me.

Please. Stop viewing his twitch streams. Don’t join this server. Take away his power over smaller or newer Apex fans. DNI with him if you kin Felix. He will sexualize you because he associates you with Felix.

I wasn’t on the server long, maybe a month or two but I was a mod.

I had access to the mod chat and there was always someone we were supposed to hate. I didn’t really see much of an issue because they usually had a good reason, for example one of the people they were after for a while was someone who had someone claim was a bad creepy person for serious reasons. (I think they should have been banned asap, but that’s not the point of this).

Also, it wasn’t only the mods who could use the mod channels. They let their freinds in too.

I didn’t really have much of an issue with the people they were witch-hunting, they had beleivable claims and most of the people they vented about weren’t in the server anymore.

But then the miki situation happened.

They came into the mod chat angry and I had some trouble finding what they did wrong, but they just made a short, rude comment. Given more context around what was going on made more sense, but still.

I run discord servers, so what I would do is just say something like “Hey, that was rude, please be nice” more or less and if it didn’t continue it would be left at that. But no, they made it this huge thing and claimed Miki was fake and the worst person ever.

They wanted to do a test to see if we could all start a convo about the l-star and see if they’d try to make the convo about them. We all talked about it, miki never said a thing. (Looking back at it, it was a stupid thing. But still.) They probably could have just said anything about the convo like their opinion about the l-star and I’m sure Jesse would have strung it up saying “SEE?!”

And one of my main issues with this is that Miki was apperently a huge issue on the server but Jesse also mentioned they were autistic. Okay. In my servers what I do if someone has a mental issue or disability I don’t have is I try to find someone with said issue/disability and ask if their actions could be because of it and how I should handle it.

When it came up in this situation, I mentioned a friend of mine who I invited to the server who has autism to come into the channel and give some advice because I don’t remember any of the people already there saying they had it (but it mightve happened, I just didnt see it or I couldn’t pick up they did). But I was completely ignored, as all the attention was on Jesse’s claims.

When Jesse shared the screenshots of his dms with Miki, I immediatley knew that he wasn’t 100% in the right. I don’t understand why he shared those since it’s damning evidence, but that’s not the point.

The way I think discord situations in dms should be handled, it should be professional, first of all. I would say something to try and make sure the person doesn’t get anxious or such, and go on to say “Hey I think you’ve been doing _____ and you shouldn’t do that”, then I’d let them say something in their defense and take it from there.

This was obviously the opposite. I stopped interacting with the server, putting it on mute. I didn’t feel comfortable there anymore because Miki went from the best person in the world to the worst in a matter of seconds.

I checked the mod chat occasionally, and a friend said they were uncomfortable and was completely ignored. Another friend of mine who wasn’t in the chat but who wasn’t completely against Miki seemed to be the next target.

I didn’t want to get involved in the server anymore and I didn’t get involved when Miki made the reblog to the server ad but I watched Jesse find out that it wasn’t a huge issue for their image and was able to kinda sweep it aside.

But then yesterday morning I got a dm from someone on the server asking if I saw. I thought it was the reblog and I said I saw it but not from the same blog. I decided to check and in the second before I closed it I noticed that it very much was not the same post. So I went back and read everything and had a little bit of an “oh shit” moment.

I asked the person if they sent it to any of the other mods and then I said I wouldn’t be the one to alert the others but that I would just leave since the post would probably get around on its own and to try and defend them from any of the shit that went down in there. They continued to share the post and I let them since it was their choice, and I updated them if anything about them was brought up and if they were going to be kicked.

I just stuck around while people left in the masses, watching the server crash and burn. It was finally deleted “after a good run” (the server was young).

If anyone was hurt by me and my failure to take action in any of the situations there, I am genuinely completely, totally 100% sorry.

If anyone who was on that server wants a place to go, many of the members from that server are on mine and we are willing and have been talking to everything, the link is my pinned post.

TL;DR: I was a mod there, Jesse was always on a witch hunt, this post is true, I’m sorry for any harm I took part in and my server (pinned post) is open for anyone who was on Jesse’s server and wants/needs a place to stay :)