Panalopy

homage to the past

How much I felt 21 years ago when you asked to leave and I let you. Should I have fought for you? Uh, no. You were already committed elsewhere. Even though you cried on the phone, hoping I wouldn’t notice. And I didn’t. You asked me not to stop you and I didn’t. That’s how much I loved you.

today? Not so much.

“All human experience is part of the pathway to the truth.” 

Best sleep since I was 30. I can’t stop using it.

Pod life

I have a magnetic clip attached to my outside door, so that building management can leave me messages. So far they haven’t used it at all. They continue to jam paper under the door or into the door frame.

Today I used the clip to hang up an envelope with a tip in it for the delivery person. I labeled the envelope to the person. They took the clip and the envelope, attached them both to my delivery, and then left it all at my door.

Do you ever get the feeling that maybe you’re missing messages from the universe?

One day, in the late 70′s, my father took me to see where he worked. There was a big poster of this guy hanging over his desk. I was stunned because I didn’t know my father was even aware of this guy. That day was, of course, long before we knew the whole story. I wondered why, of all the characters in Star Wars, my father would choose this guy. 

At the time, he was busy leading a team that helped put together the Internet by writing specifications for and purchasing servers. Maybe he was using this guy for inspiration to make sure they were strong and secure. Or, maybe it was a pointer to hackers, who were basically a gleam in his eye.

Somehow it came up in conversation. I don’t remember exactly what he said—something about “unappreciated” or “misunderstood”, which shocked me.