Winds of Madness

mains @hopewrought, @golgothac, @the4thsurvivor

portrayal notes: Psychology | Physiology | Relationships & Sexuality | Wesker's Beliefs & Politics

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Will going insane thinking he killed Al with the virus strain he gave him & wanting to defect himself now because he resents Spencer for making him do it and realised Al was right about Umbrella going down.

Alyssa being left with dozens of incredibly fucked up and dangerous leads and very dangerous and paranoid Irons to handle & Umbrella scrambling to get rid of her.

Ada fucking going through it at the NEST with increasingly paranoid and hostile Birkin and no communication from Wesker.

HUNK being very aware that shit’s fucked and following vague requests/instructions left by Al to see where things are going.

Mansion survivors being ostracised in RC due to Umbrella’s influence & accusing local WASP favourite of being dirty.

Al, sitting in Italy with a hole in his stomach: I know what I’m doing.

his dick is fairly normal sized, comparatively to his overall size. His preferences are very boring and vanilla, and he has no interest in exploring kinks or even in using toys. Sex can be a good outlet mentally and physically, but it's not something he spends much time thinking about and can live without.

"Heh..."

Ever-since Alexia first had made her name known to them, plunging William into frantic, foolish, attempts to surpass her and prove himself to their peers, Albert had assumed a certain role in the equation, to mitigate the damage. As Arklay's other head researcher at the time, he had no choice but to remain in control, manage William's outbursts and ill-conceived, wasteful experiments, and keep the rest of the staff in line and occupied.

Fifteen years had passed since then, but not much had changed, it seemed.

"We have had this conversation, before." More than either of them would have liked to. "I cannot give you what you desire, William."

'I want to.'

"I have no aspirations to be your secret." That was rich. Secrets were all they had been able to be for one another, once. But, that was then. They were young and the world outside of Arklay felt far away.

"Do not be so reckless," Paying him a visit in person, to his apartment, at such a late hour was hardly proper conduct for an esteemed scientist in charge of such a large operation, let alone for one with a wife and child. "you are no longer a child and it is time I stop treating you like one."

"Make peace with your choices."

"I certainly have."

Will was his first love and made him feel many things he had never felt before; good and bad. He felt like he had found his equal and someone he finally connected with for the first time in his life, and when they broke up, he felt like he would never find that, again. Will was and always will be incredibly dear and special to him, no matter what capacity they exist around each other, in. He is someone he will always miss having in his life.

He found a different kind of connection with Bethany, bonding over them both being tyrants. She helped him feel less alone in his existence and even made him want to do something he normally resented - playing by human rules, to be able to be with her. She is that dream of having what he is missing, and he thinks of her and their time together, fondly, even if he had to accept he had to let her go.

Hunk was always with him, in some capacity, ever-since they met when Al was eighteen. They spent a lot of time together and a lot of time apart, and Al always held a lot of affection for him, but never was able to confront it because Hunk was the ultimate example of that perfectly stoic man Al aspired to be, and he felt that indulging his feelings around him would only disappoint Hunk in him.

But it IS an important bit of dialogue from Wesker, nonetheless. I am once again circling back to Iwao saying ‘he believed the world to be rotten since a young age’ and that he always failed to connect with other people.

The virus simply gave him an excuse to detach himself from his humanity, completely. Before that, he still had to play by human rules and blend in, and after he attained so much power and freed himself from Umbrella, he no longer had need for that.

Furthermore, he always had that hatred in him. His original creator has said as much. But, once he was detached from his humanity completely, he allowed himself to be consumed by that hatred for the world he had always felt he wasn’t really a part of.