i think i still have some olanzapine left to help pull me to earth a little bit and i'm going to try & find out tomorrow how to transfer a prescription from kaiser to an outside drug site so that i can get my meds cheaper. I need my medications i need them i need my care or everything falls apart

Just like.. i don't understand any of this and i've never been without insurance and i'm scared that i have no support and no way to afford it. i don't know how to file for state insurance i haven't been to therapy in weeks i've been without my antipsychotic and sleep meds and i'm fucking things up in my life. badly. someone please help me understand these adult things and how to fix this