Eff

watching them slowly get more and more bored and uninterested in me, my chest hurts i want to die

a freak or a perv sounds nice, but i just really want to hold hands underneath a blanket with u and have u lay ur head on my shoulder, while i trace the lines on ur palm with my finger with smiling friends or gravity falls or smosh playing on your laptop or tv tbh

is it such a crime for me to love older men?

constantly calling him "bro" and "dude" cuz we're just friends and i'm trying to come off as super chill and hella platonic (even tho i day dream about him fucking me till i cry, praising and worshiping his perfect body, and kissing and biting him all over )

having a crush on someone who wants nothing to do with you hurts so fucking bad

i wish i could be an angel as a boy, but im nothing at all

we haven't in spoken in a week, he's tired and bored of me, he hates me, i hate myself so fucking much, I really mean nothing to him at all. i'm disgusting and unlikeable i cant do this anymore

i wish he knew that i would do anything for him, that i can be anything for him. i can be his boy or his girl or his pet, if he likes dogs i can be his puppy but if he doesn’t then i can be his cat. i want to serve him, he doesn’t even have to love me or like me, i just want his attention.

i hate the way i look cause when he told me the type of boys and girls he's into, i realized that I didn't look like either of them, but for him i can start trying.