行人

felt torn & free floating & unsupported by the world & naturally had to face that void & come out the other side. took a chance & found my footing & my support of long term & new friends.

one day at a time & each day do something meaningful for yourself or you'll spin out off the axis into the world

on the train i daydreamed about a video i want to make

but it has to start with a drawing

so i began to day dream about the drawing

the components of spinning globes

the shadows that fall over the top of my hands

the setting of a room

waiting waiting for something that will never happen

for someone elses sense of security

knowing i wont be a real option- i pretend i don't notice or care

to save us both from having to say it outloud

that you've at least been kinder to me then others in the last years.

im still being harassed by my ex boyfriends friends.

i wish dearly that i never met you & walked away the first time

and maybe then my life could've grown in peace

so i hold onto some semblance of someone who at least

can act like they care, sometimes.

i wish i could be heartbroken in this town,

without fearing my fall being seen

I love that there's a tree outside my new window.