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i did a google search for "most recent invention" which my girlfriend said was something strong bad would do

teamwork makes the dream work. and dreamwork. makes shrek

i feel like the kneejerk reaction everyone had to undertale, of being scared of any degree of permanence to their actions in a video game, is like. some kind of sociological tell, but i couldn't tell you exactly what it means.

the idea that a video game could materially hold you accountable for the choices you make in it, and how that might feel like a breaking of the unsaid contract between developer and player, wherein the developer is only ever expected and furthermore obligated to provide you with an uncomplicated experience where your choices have no true bearing on yourself; the sort of weird guilt that emerged post-undertale where everyone got the wrong takeaways from what the game was saying about the conventions of RPGs as a genre, and how it highlights the ways that fictional worlds are brutally colonized and harvested for their meaning, even in ways it hadn't meant to that just emerged organically from player response; the demonization of the protagonist of the game for the sole crime of holding you morally accountable for the path you chose to lead it down, that it would dare ever express any true agency rather than let itself be overwritten by your will, as though that is ever how video games as stories have worked. it pushed against player expectation in a lot more ways than people gave it credit for and i think the world wasn't ready for it in 2015, and they're still not in 2026.

going for a run as a tgirl doesnt worry me much bc as a kid i was indoctrinated by wartime america and summarily chose to assimilate into a hypermasculine culture wherein overwhelming aggression & violence is encouraged, rewarded, even honored, & therefore anyone who bothers me will just learn the hard way ive been looking for an excuse since i was like 10 years old lmao

going for a run tn wish everyone else luck

oh my godddd i forgot how good it feels to go on a run this is why when i stopped running i started doing drugs

the best thing ab going on a run when u wanna kill people is coming back and realizing ur actually kinda ambivalent about killing people and youd really rather take a shower and change into something comfy

do you still think i'm hot with this giant hole in my chest

love the first 20m of talking to a new therapist where u have to speedrun every horrific thing youve done/thats been done to you while staying composed enough to keep speedrunning & also making sure not to say shit thatll get you 51/5250'd

rewatching whiplash (i miss band)

nothing teaches u to hate urself like music instructors who also hate u