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wow i loved the last episode!!!!! Way better than i expected. I get the message. Your old self is doing well. Dont hold onto it, live your new life in your new body. Idek?! Lol! All i know is that i felt calm knowing what their corporal selves were doing on the other side. Then they can live their lives in peace and they have closure. I fucking loved it. It was beautiful. For once, what looks like an escape from reality is actually a safe space to live and grow. It’s a reality. Love trans Jax. It was a really random way to enter the commentary. I’m not trans but my sister is and they notice different things that I never notice, so I suppose Ribbit being like Jax yo! Thanks for telling me about your traumas, now I’m going to give you a cute bowtie to extra show my appreciation and respect for your personal life and trust in me. Actually made sense? Even though the timing for me didnt? And then Jax being okay in the maid fits, all inside but outside. Was that meant to be like a nod to not being ready to come out as trans when they first wore the maid outfit? I’m confused. I dont really want to dissect anything it really doesnt fucking need it

i hate this show because it makes me so uncomfortable but at the same time i like it because the humour is spectacular and cast are cool. I hate this. Like yea dude i need to watch a triggering movie atm to help myself to cry & release my emotions, but THIS is like tricking you and secretly going past that into your deep seated trauma. What the fuck

This year has fucking sucked. I hope I can remember who i am and everything soon. I havent got much grip on reality

im actually going to throw up about what happened with Jax. But was it painful? Is it pajnful? If he felt relief is he ok? Personally I’m trying to learn to be okay with losing people. I’m trying to understand this stuff. Relief is the only indicator of “okay” to me, that even I can feel ok if someone else passed for their own relief. I mean i dont know. I say this bc Jax had that hallucinogenic episode and i was like ok he seems at peace, so i fee happy he can be happy, but then at the same time you feel so gross and sad about how much pain he was living with. So … do you feel mortified and crushed or when he finally passes on to rest peacefully do you feel okay ?

i’m moving house & put all my vibrators in storage except for one. Then i realised i had no charger. So a uselezs vibrator. I went out and bought an emergency bullet. Very good. So what. I survived one day, but my mental state, undone by 1000 years

Should i just make a bunch of digital circus art or what? It’s nice to finally get something easy to draw BACK IN MY ARCHIVE. Time to uncrunch the arthritis

Anyone wanna eat my pussy please

SEX ME UP, SPEEDOS

what happened to loki and that other guy

Thank you Pink Floyd for Pigs on the Wing. What a song to listen to on the way to work. Or any time I need to be brought back eown to Earth. I’m sick of all these overproduced songs churned through computer programs that just feel like head fillers. I listen to a lot of it. But I feel so sick. I feel crazy. And then we’re lucky to have this library of music from our past. So that we can see and breathe out of the holes we make from society. I just want everything to be normal. We’re the unlucky society. We’re in a new age of dominance and zero freedom, and the governments are being run by corporations. And really where does anything go from here. It freaks me out that one day, the rest of the land of which I am personally from, may be overruled and we’ll no longer have any breath of grass or tree or in my case desert (which I know is technically uninhabitable dependant on area) but it’s scary. It’s scary that one day, maybe my family won’t be able to find local produce to eat good non-processes food from. I feel trapped and scared always and in the past 3 years, this has been domineering. Never in my lifw have I felt such fear that runs in the back of my head and before my eyes.

MONGOOOOOOOOOOO

feeling self conscious about my big wonky pointy nose. It’s weird bc people think im attractive albeit the presence of the nose. Why does my nose have to be so long FUCK THE JUDGE