Vera Ethel

Don’t Run Away.

i thought i was going insane but instead somebody asked to call me that i havent ever called before and i ended dissasosiating via scrolling through instagram reels for 2 hours and making some bullshit to put on the gram if i had a therapist they would probaly tell me that it has something somthing AvPD something something to make me feel better and not take responsability for being actually insane and needy and worrysome i wish my boyfriend didnt fallasleep before i could

i got two cats in me, one wants to try and have sex with women, the other NEEDS to, they fight a lot

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what ive relaised is that i need to stand up for myself. that sounds kind of stupid and incredibly obvious but more in a way where i stop infantinlising myself because i feel weak and powerless and instead work though it. After big conversations with my boyfriend as of this mroning, going through all.5 stages of grief, i understand better then ever. I like being childish thats fun and cute but also im not a baby, i wish i had a parental figure but falling apart and hoping for a lover to put me together simply isnt needed, espeically for how strong I truly am. I don't know though, lots of thought today and more acceptence then anything. i need to see my docter about my foot and respond to my tutors, i think that can happen tomorrow, for now my bedroom is a fucking state and i need to lock in. If im being too funny just know im struggling real bad