Helios

So I know I’ve been pretty non-existent around here for a bit. Things have been hectic at work (has been put in for a promotion because he’s been busting his ass) and there’s just been a lot going on in general. Not to mention the ol’ head space hasn’t been all that great lately.

I did want to drop in and at least let people know I’m still around. Things are only going to get more crazy for at least the next month or so too… I still want to write, I just need to find a way to get more spoons in the proverbial drawer to pull from though. 

Some of you have me on Discord and I’m honestly usually able to talk more there and can usually get up to a little light RP from time to time. If you’re not on my list and want to poke me, you’re welcome to add me so long as you let me know who you are first. Dusty Qrow#6861 is my handle.

When I find the energy, I will still be replying to things here so if we have something going, it’s not lost. I’m holding on to it, unless you don’t want me to. Just let me know. I’m more than willing to do other things later too if you’re up for it. 

That about does it for now I think. Thanks for putting up with my crazy attention spans and energy levels. I love you guys and miss you.

“ i had a dream about you. ”

“ i’ve never cared about anyone the way i care about you. ”

“ i know it’s not fair to ask you to wait for me, but i can’t bear the thought of seeing you with someone else.  ”

“ i’m not really good at this sort of thing. i never really had much luck with relationships before but i wanna make it work. i want us to work. ”

“ i love you. you don’t have to say anything, i just thought you should know. ”

“  i do care about you i’m just. i’m not good at talking about it. ”

“ i didn’t like seeing you with them. ”

“ you’re my person. you’ll always be the one i go to. ”

“ i could have lost you today! do you know what that would have done to me? ”

“ do you even know what you do to me? ”

“ i can’t stop thinking about you.  ”

“ you’re the most amazing person i’ve ever met. ”

“ i don’t deserve you, but i want you anyway. ”

“ you’re safe with me, you know that right? ”

“ please just tell me how you feel. ”

“ just say the words. tell me you want me and i’m yours. ”

“ you’re always there. i didn’t used to see it before, but i do now. every time i’ve ever needed someone, you were there.  ”  

“ you had a dream about me? ”

“ i guess i always kinda had a little bit of a crush on you. ”

“ you thought i never noticed you, but i did. i always saw you. ”

“ oh my god please don’t tell me you tried to make breakfast again, the stove hasn’t recovered since last time. ”

“ you waited for me? ”

“ i was always kind of hoping we’d give it a shot one day.  ”

“ you were always my maybe, ya know? ‘maybe they’d finally ask me out.’ ‘maybe when i wasn’t the one looking, they were noticing me too.’ i know it’s silly, but. you were always in the back of my mind. ”

“ oh god you’re really gonna do the whole rocks against the window at midnight boombox thing aren’t you? ”

“ i’m gonna wait for you, as long as it takes. ”

“ loving you saved me. ”

“ why me? out of everyone you could’ve chose.  ”

“ i’ve always loved you. ”

“ i know it’s late, but i just needed someone and. i guess you always answer when i call.  ”

“ i brought pizza and wine and a horrible movie so in the words of rory gilmore, i’m ready to wallow now. ”

“ you didn’t have to come ya know? i’m glad you did though. ”

“ if we could run away together and go anywhere, where would you take me? ”

“ what are you doing here? it’s the middle of the night. ”

“ i dont want to go back to how we used to be. i want more. i want you. ”

“ you’ve had every piece of my heart since the moment i met you. ”

“ why is it your always the one to pick up the pieces every time my heart breaks? ”

“ are you gonna keep looking at me like that or are you actually gonna kiss me? ”

“ i’m gonna marry you one day. ”

“ i used to think about what it’d be like if we got together. ”

“ yes, of course i love you, you idiot. ”

“ just stay this time. stay for me. ”

“ don’t you dare give up on us. ”

“ i always come running back to you. i can’t help it. ”

“ you deserve someone who always puts you first. ”

“ you were never my second choice. ”

 “ they don’t deserve you. and i’m not— i’m not tryna be that asshole that says i do. but sure as hell would never hurt you like that. ”

I am an 18+ ONLY (preferably 21+) person

Dad's not doing well. He is coming home from the rehab center tomorrow to Hospice care which is basically end of life so I'm gonna be helping my mom out as much as possible...

Started new job last week and still at the old one until the end of this month and the hours are kicking my ass. Been too exhausted all around for much and that's not gonna let up any time soon.

He groaned and rolled on his stomach, his arm draping off of the couch. “You do?” He said in a low, tired voice. He hardly remembered what happened the night before, but now he was awake, shirtless, on someone’s couch, and hungover.

Okay, so bringing random people home wasn’t exactly the best of ideas, but he always seemed to be the one to run with ideas that weren’t the best. This wasn’t the first time he’d wound up with a random guy at his place after all… Not that he was exactly ~proud~ of that fact but hey, it was what it was right? Besides, he wasn’t about to just let the poor guy wander out into the night, drunk as a skunk or so he’d assumed, and end up in an actual bad situation. Though, getting him on the back of his motorcycle and getting him here had been… interesting… to say the least. 

“What are you doing?”

“What did you knock over?”

“Don’t eat that!”

“What’s in your mouth? What do you have in your mouth?!?”

“Plastic isn’t food.”

“How did you get up there?”

“Are you stuck? You got yourself up there, you can get down.”

“I have to pee – can you move?”

“It’s so early, please stop.”

“I haven’t seen you in hours. Where were you hiding?”

“I know you’re trying to tell me something, I just don’t know what.”

“Don’t be mean! I’m just trying to love you!”

“You’re just the cutest thing ever.”

-points to mirror-  “That’s you!”

“I’m trying to take a picture of you, please stop moving.”

“You haven’t moved in hours.”

“How can you be such a bed hog? You’re so tiny!”

“You have the cutest nose.”

“Look at those feet-ies!”

“You’re like a gargoyle up there.”

“Don’t bite me, that’s rude.”

“You look so comfortable. I wish I could be that comfortable.”

“All you do is sleep and eat. That’s the life.”

“You are so lazy. You would not survive in the wild.”

“Could you blink, or something? You’re starting to freak me out.”

“Those squirrels look like they’re doing something shifty.”

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If Helios’ head whipped around any faster it might very well have come off. Had Rein just… did he really just…? Okay, he was sort of used to people having crushes on him, but they didn’t usually mean anything… at least he hadn’t thought they did. Did Rein’s mean anything? 

“No, I’m fine…”

The words didn’t have much punch behind them. Helios was denying the truth, as he usually did when the nightmares were at their worst. The last few nights had been bad, some of the worst he’d had in recent history. As much as he wanted to say the guilt didn’t still plague him, that too was a denial of the truth. Val’s voice haunted his dreams far too regularly, pleading with him to find her or coldly admonishing him for letting her die, for not trying harder. As much as he knew that his elder sister would never actually be that way, his own emotions ate away at him, his mind playing the worst of tricks on him on a nightly basis.

“No wonder you called me a Libra.” Tony could only shake his head. To be honest, the majority of that went well over his head. He was into the stars sure, about as far as to know what constellations were where and could make semi-romantic things come from his mouth about them on dates… but that was about it. This stuff about Alpha stars and elements and so forth, that’s what went over his head. No wonder he’d gotten bored…

When she got so ‘upset’ about the fact that there were ones that no longer existed anymore, he couldn’t help but laugh a little. “Well, what do you expect? Stars don’t live forever just like we don’t… If they die then the constellation changes and yeah… it sucks but it happens.”

“You know that I love you, you crazy ass mutable air sign. That for some reason has a really bad rep. Seriously, everyone hates either Geminis…or Scorpios. Oh, and Leos but I get why everyone hates them.” She stopped for a moment, seeming to try and figure out how she wanted to word. Sometimes she could focus and other times she just got distracted looking for answers. She was probably going to need cork boards and red yarn the way this was going.