!!?

choosing to not feel stressed or anxious from here on out

to be quite honest i feel like being a completely different person when i wake up tomorrow

i should be going back to sleep but i feel so fucking cold and scared now and for what? for nothing!

we happened such a long time ago and i lost myself for a while there after we were through and then brought myself back and i guess that was the case not once but a few times(?) and now i truly am doing okay so why is it so uncomfortable that she's like a couple doors away from me now in the same damn dorm. it's like she's some sort of bad omen that my past won't let me go and i shouldn't be looking towards any sort of future. anyway i'm sick.

i truly don't know what i would do without you in my life. glad that regardless of what changes and all the ups and downs you're still rock solid by my side through everything. even my stupid little worries

no! i don't feel good today! and no! i won't be taking questions!

i'm not so sure it was a bad idea anymore? catch me when i change my mind but right now i just feel pure softness

mark my words: this is a terrible idea and it will end badly for one of us