@deceitanon 146
Rasa pauses for a while longer, holding the bottle of alcohol close simply because she wants to hold something in general.
"Um..."
...
"Yeah... I..."
It takes her a lot to say her next words, and her body relaxes fully when she does.
"I trust you... Just um... I'm..."
She shakes her head and stops saying whatever she was going to say.
"Is Amber still in the same room?"
She trusts Amber decently too, but she doesn't fully trust anyone yet.
âOh- uh sure I think so- she doesnât come out of there oftenâ
{Remy frowns, he grows tense.. he wasnât able to get Rasa to like him enough.. he doesnât want to manipulate her in any way⌠but if she somehow ends up hating him..}
{heâs fucked in so many ways}
{he.. doesnât want to go back.. to how things were with Tyme}
"Thank you..."
She notices him tense up.
...
She considers saying anything or not...
"Are you okay...?"
She's just wary of trusting anyone... Sure she trust physical contact with Amber, that's why she asked in the first place, but she does trust Remy being protective...
Trust isn't linear for her.
She doesn't understand why Remy is tense though.
âYouâŚ. Literally have my fucking life in the palm of your hands. You tell my heart to stop beating it will!â
âIâm scared!â {his voice wavers}
âPlease⌠I need you to trust me⌠so I know I can trust youâ
âI-I donât want to dieâŚâ
{he tears up, his tears are all black.. oil, his vision gets spotty because of it}
{he backs up against the wall}
Rasa freezes as she thinks...
"I..."
Her mind feels louder.
"I-I wouldn't... I-I don't want to hurt anyone..."
Saying don't want instead of just won't...
"S-sorry I-I'm sorry!"
She can't think straight.
"I don't want this! I-I... Fuck! I..."
She can't just...
She backs up.
"I-I don't distrust you... I... I just struggle to trust, i-it's not you..."
Why does she want to run...
...
"I... I trust some things with you?... I-I trust you being protective, but I trust Amber with touch... Trust isn't... I... It isn't linear for me... I wanted Amber so I could be held..."
That's all...
âIâŚIâ
âFuck can we talk about this later- just forget it happened until we get some fucking sleep and itâs not 3 am in the god forsaken morningâ
{Remy is shaking⌠such a powerful man, broken}
âJust⌠donât touch the strings until we talkâŚâ
Rasa nods and takes a deep breath.
"O-Okay... I... Talk later then, Remy..."
She silently walks over to the room Amber had been in... She doesn't look at Remy again.
...
"Amber?" Rasa knocks on the door as she asks.
{Remy shakily teleports to Eddieâs room} âEddie?â
ââ
{Amber is sleeping with the cats, her tail curled up as a bed for them}
âHm⌠Ra?â
{she murmurs sleepily}
Eddie is quick to sit up in his bed when hears Remy.
"Remy?... What's wrong?"
He shifts over in his bed to make room for Remy. He's half asleep, but he'll wake up for Remy no matter what.
----
Rasa hums and sits on the edge of the bed.
"Hi... Can I sleep with you tonight?"
She takes off the braces while she talks and leans them up against a nearby wall... She sounds sad and tired.
"Don't want to talk about it."
She just wants to stop thinking.
She also places the alcohol next to the braces, saving that for later.
âStrings⌠Bad.â
{Remy shakes his head as he slips into the spot Eddie made}
ârasa⌠can control me..â
â-
âMmm, mhm, câmere itâs sleep timeâ
{Amber makes room for here}
âI like those braces you got.. *yawns*â
Eddie holds Remy gently and wraps a tail around him.
"Hmm..."
It takes a second for what Remy said to register, and by that point he's properly awake.
"Wait what?... H-how?"
He barely knows Rasa.
----
Rasa gets into the bed and actually curls up into Amber unprompted.
"Thank you..."
She falls asleep almost immediately... She doesn't know how long she's been awake.
âMana Weavingâ
âShe literally-â
âShe literally weaves things from my core..â
{Remy curls up into the bed}
âShe doesnât even trust me!â
âShe can do anything to me!â
ââ-
{Amber purrs softly and holds Rada, falling asleep with her}
Eddie gently runs his hand through Remy's hair to try and calm both of them.
He has to think.
"Has she given any indication she would do anything to hurt you?"
Knowing Eddie's protective nature this question is important to him.
"I'm here... I wouldn't let anything happen, okay?"
âO-okay.. and not- really? But she doesnât know how to use it correctly.. she came up with Mana weaving on her own!â
âShe doesnât want to control me it looks like- which is good.. but damnit I need her on my side, so I can relax in againâ
{Remy nuzzles into Eddie}
âShe can also see everything I do apparently- even which it comes to rewinding timeâŚâ
âItâs so weird- Iâm so curious about what she can do but at the same time holy shitâ
âHow do I go at this my dreamer? How do I not make it so Iâm not being pushy about this..?â
Eddie nuzzles Remy back and takes a deep breath.
"Shit... Um... You can teach her how to use it, which could build trust too... But also you could try talking?... I mean earning someone's trust is different for each person."
He runs his hand through Remy's hair.
"It'll be okay, my seeker... I can't really explain how to earn someone's trust because it can vary so much, so just talk to her and ask you know?... Sorry if it isn't very helpful... Want me to stay by you?"
{Remy nods and sighs softly, and shakily}
âMaybe⌠I should talk to her in her dreams.. that way she can feel safer? I canât hurt her in her dreamscapeâ
âand yes please.. i want you to stay with me, thank youâ
{Remy leans into Eddieâs hand}
âI love youâ
Eddie purrs softly and and kisses Remy's forehead.
"I love you too, my seeker... I'll be right here."
...
--
Rasa is back in the valley from her last dreamscape. The large flower field surround by mountains with the river that flows through it. She's sat at the river, feet in the water, wings laid out, and humming softly as she stares at the water.
A gentle breeze cools the air around them.
She wouldn't notice Remy at first.
{Remy watches her in the background, completely invisible to her- unfortunately, he canât appear until Rasa looks for him}
{He looks around in dreamscape, he fidgets with his string on his wrist with a sigh}
Rasa kicks her feet in the river and sighs.
She pauses though. She's more aware of the strings in general, so she can sense that.
"... Remy?"
She looks towards him, just to see he'e there, and then turns back to the river.
{Remy immediately tenses and nods}
âSorry- I donât.. mean to interrupt your space..but I thought this would be the best place, since none of us can hurt each other in hereâ
{Remy slowly sits down in a distance but next to her, giving her space but he knows they need to talk}
Rasa nods slowly and stays silent for a while.
"I don't like having power over others... Not like this."
She sighs.
"I don't want to hurt you... But I also don't feel ready to really trust anyone yet. It's scary..."
She kicks her feet in the water more.
"... I trust Amber with touch, but... Not really more. Still feel on edge... So it's not... It's not anything to do with you when it comes to trust."
ââŚâ
âI guess thatâs fair- I.. believe you, when you say that you donât like having power over people.. but we are here nowâ
âI canât.. do much about it but the best way to go about this⌠i teach you how to fully master and understand Mana weaving..â
{Remy says with a shaky sigh}
âIt wonât be all in one day, but- it would be best if we at least talked about startingâ
Rasa nods slowly and fidgets with her hands.
"I would like to learn then... Maybe I'll feel ready to trust people eventually, but... Past isn't always easy to let go of. I'm at least eating now, even if I still really hate needing blood."
There's progress, but she's not quick to it.
"How would you teach me?..."
She looks over at Remy finally. Her golden and red eyes, she almost always covers her red eye with her hair. Not in her dreamscape though.
âWell, you should show me what you know, then I can help expand on itâ
{Remy turns to her and tilts his head}
âAny progress is still good yknow?â
Rasa smiles softly and relaxes.
"Yeah... Sure I don't know how much I do know in perspective to how much can be done."
She chuckles a little and then focuses on the mana threads again.
She weaves them like incredibly fine lace into one of her dolls. Indistinguishable from a real person when she flows the mana into it in order to animate it.
Then she weaves together a wine glass like before. She mainly just knows how to weave it together to make a type of illusion.
It's just mana, but the way she does is like making an illusion out of something physical instead of a mirage.
"Kind of just know how to weave it together to make things, not sure how to do anything else right now."
Still she weaved those threads together impossibly fast.
"Does that help?"
