don't make a fuss

melting chocolate is a feeling

i made you mayonaise but you were already sleep

i've given up on redemptions for someone who lies to everyone and their god.

it is getting worse

i think i know the motive. its not money, that's a plus. its for a proxy parent. its for the separation and mortality.

i believe this might be my fourth or third attempt at this. my memory is awful and inconsistent but I refuse to forget vital information. if i no longer create or post anything, assume i am dead or close to it and act accordingly. i am not sure or i can't remember why i obsessed myself with the idea of letting people know. I believe it may stem from my fear of forgetting everything and therefore being forgotten myself, but at least living on in someone's thoughts even if briefly helps me. please give me a sign that you exist if i forget too much.