something in the face of eternity

However, just like every baker in the world, suga despises having to do the dishes. Yet for each new batch of sweets, he's left with a mountain of them.

Every time, Daichi is there to happily offer to wash them. Suga feels so guilty whenever his boyfriend takes over the sink without a second thought. Daichi always insists that he is hapoy to do them.

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DELTARUNE TOMORROW...

and then the real nikki speaks to him. and she begs him to kill her. she is so scared. don't wake her up please dont wake her up just kill me. and bear gets angry. he doesn't even apologise. he doesn't care about nikki's true feelings. he WANTS her to be obsessed with him, he just doesn't want her to do it in such an ugly and inconvenient way. he lashes out at her. "What would be so bad? What's so bad about being with me?".

it has never been about her. if it was, bear wouldn't have been satisfied about living with a girl who's only resemblance to nikki was her body. he turned her life into a living hell. in fact, he turned TWO girl's lives into a living hell. because the entity was miserable too. she was created exclusively to love a person who would never love her back. who never cared about her.

and he never once considers how it affected nikki. he gets scared of the entity acting weird and creepy but the moment the real nikki begs him for a shred of sympathy, for just a bit of mercy. he doesn't care. he only cares about the fact she won't reciprocate his feelings. he only cares about how she can satisfy him.

it was the turning point of the movie that made me realise that there was never any justifying his actions. it re-contextualises everything. he was content with nikki's suffering as long as it brought him pleasure. as long as it soothed his ego. as long as it was convenient. and for as much as he talked about being in love with her, all he cared about was her body. the entity was an entirely different girl, all she had was nikki's face and body. if he ever truly loved nikki like he claimed, he would have been deeply disturbed by the personality change. but he never was. he was only ever disturbed by the creepy things specifically. but the palatable changes? the way she talks, the way she expresses herself, what she does in her free time, how she dresses? all of that was gone. different. a whole new person. yet he didn't give a single fuck.