Sexy Milf

So I know you guys have missed me...I’ve missed you all too 😘😘😘

Because tumblr has blocked most of my posts, I’ve decided to start a NEW platform!!!

Want to know??? Send me a quick message, Like/Reblog this post and I’ll give you the details.

Don’t worry...IT’S FREE!!!

I’ve come here to spew my thoughts...mainly because no one here knows who I am and in the real world I don’t have anyone to talk to!!!

I’m lonely as f*ck for starters wishing I had someone laying next to me right now. I can’t sleep because I have a million thoughts running through my mind. Firstly I’m wondering why the person I thought I would spend the rest of my life with doesn’t want to spend it with me. He keeps saying he does but then turns around and ignores me and give all his attention to everyone else. It’s like I’m a burden to him or like I’m bothering him when in truth and in fact I just want to have a relationship that even the happiest people would envy. I want us to be so happy and chill and nothing can come in between us. Anyone knows what I’m talking about? That sort of thing where y’all so comfortable that u can say anything, look anyhow and still be madly in love with each other and you can’t keep your hands off of each other...yea that’s what I want and that’s what I’m offering but he doesn’t want it.

I keep trying to figure out why and how to convince him that I would make him the happiest person alive but all my efforts fail and now I’m so frustrated that it just comes out wrong. I pray everyday for guidance and for my heart to be healed because it’s breaking apart piece by piece as every day passes and just confirms more and more that I may really be alone for good. I can’t force anyone to want these things...even if I know I’m offering something that I always hear people say they want!

I’m not saint but God knows I would love the hell out of my man and treat him like such a king!!! Like where is my king??? I’m here making babies for guys who don’t see what I would give, I just want someone to see the real me. I’m so fragile yet strong, gentle just tough. I always thinks about others even when I get upset and do crazy things. I usually put everything and everyone before myself and when I’m down like I am right now, I simply cry in private, then wipe my tears and put on a brave face.

I put up a brave front for everyone because I know that no one wants to hear me say how lonely I am or how much I want to wake up next to the love of my life on mornings or how I want to live with my lover and have sex in every room ok every surface and how I want us to take care of each other and trust each other to the point of surrendering ourselves to each other. No one wants to hear that. So that’s why I’m here bearing my soul to thousands who don’t me.

If you’ve gotten this far in my post, thank you for taking the time to read it. I know it’s a lot and I know I probably sound ridiculous and sad and like all I ever do is complain, I’m not perfect, I’m just a woman with everything to give with no one to give it to and nothing to receive in return.

And yet it goes totally unnoticed by everyone...

Soooooooo my boyfriend who I’m pregnant for isn’t fucking me or really taking me on for that matter!!!