Eazy Kinetic Autistic

Of late, my daughter gets emotional at bedtime. She’s thinking about her day and getting upset about a particular bad choice. My wife is frustrated about it. I see it as a good thing. Kids develop ethics and morals by feeling guilt. We are careful to emphasize that the action was bad and feeling upset about that is good. We don’t want to feel we are bad. We stress thinking about how to achieve…

Best description of executive dysfunction that I have read to date: My brain keeps giving me instructions my body doesn’t follow. That describes my life and struggle pretty well. The over a thousand times someone called me lazy. The hundreds of times people described me as not living up to my potential. The clumsiness at times, which made no sense as I exceled at sports. The need for a…

Asking autistics, what's your relationship with music?— Autistic Lauren 🏳️‍⚧️ 🏳️‍🌈 (@Autistic_Lauren) May 27, 2026 Music soothes my inner beast. It creates regulation so well, I easily play some songs on loop. I obsess on a song which becomes the center of my plays until I move on. That can take hours to years. Example: A couple summers ago, I re-watched Into the Spiderverse and played What’s…

My wife invited my daughter’s bestie to spend the day with us. Different kid, more of the same as day 2. First up, it was frustration about the handoff. Despite knowing about this plan, bestie’s dad took her to his office, and the mom went across town to get her home to meet us. Next, the heat at the park with no shade put me in sensory overload. I don’t handle heat and bright light (see day 1)…

After yesterday’s sensory hell stuff, my wife had made plans for the loudest, most annoying of my daughter’s friends to spend the day. The kid my wife complained about spending a couple hours with us after school a couple of times in the past few weeks. So, we all knew the day would be loud and potentially overwhelming. It started early as her dad dropped her off before going to work. (Big…

My wife and daughter love a studio that does painting ceramics. It physically hurts me. The first time I went, something made me hurt. I wasn’t sure what at the time. I just knew I felt off. That’s what sensory stuff usually initially feels like. There’s something wrong. No idea what. I sort of have to experiment to figure out what. In the example of the ceramics studio, I started with closing…

This phrase probably contributed 40% of my punishment as a kid. As a parent now, I understand mine wanted to understand why I did the behavior and interpreted my answer as covering up or evasion. They thought I didn’t want to get someone else in trouble, had nefarious motivation, didn’t want additional punishment, etc. But… I had interoception issues. I didn’t my emotions at the time I did the…

I have always been a kid magnet. Like they see me as a big teddy bear or maybe fellow kid? The kid they can go to to get away with stuff other adults will deny. In spending time with my daughter’s class the past week for Field Day, a picnic walk, awards, etc., these kids have really glommed on to me. Only a portion will be in my daughter’s class next year. As a young kid, I preferred the company…

The thing that I have always seen with ADHD is the variable capacity. Some of the time I can do the things I am supposed to do. It takes effort that I am exerting to mask, to self-regulate, to do all the things. When I have the energy through having the ability to get the rest I need, I feel like I don’t have ADHD. I like this take in a journal: The central implication is that executive…

While at a kid birthday party after tooting about masking, I kind of noticed how I leveraged my party guy mask. A guy found out I work in IT and we talked about AI. I challenged the children to tug of war when they didn’t find it that fun and made them excited about the game. All the masking during a 3 hour party made me exhausted. Like falling asleep at 5 pm exhausted. Probably doesn’t help I…

Another of those, “when I see it described and observe myself, it feels hurtful just how often I do it,” items: When you want to change how you’re feeling, you first generate a reappraisal. You bend and stretch your mind to come up with some alternative way to look at the situation… After you generate a reappraisal, it might seem like you’re done, but you’re not. That alternative interpretation…