Eazy Kinetic Autistic

A woman rear ended my car. A nothing burger of an event to spawn paperwork and bureaucracy to cover your ass. A tap because she spaced. My wife was more upset on my behalf than my reaction. Crying. Hugs. In part because I texted: “I’m okay. Car okay.” Short. Sweet. Literal. Direct. My last accident was 8 years ago when I hit a deer running across a busy road. No reaction. Assessed the…

While this is my normal state, I don’t talk about it. I don’t complain about being tired. I don’t sigh. I don’t emote. I just do what needs doing. I don’t use it as an excuse to not do or ask for help. I know it’s there as it’s the first thing I always feel. But, I also know I have to dig underneath it for the real feelings. Feeling good for me is feeling like I can hold the tired at bay.…

The hours when I am not tired are fleeting. Like an Eskimo thinking about snow and ice, I feel different kinds of tired. Lethargic, ennui, fatigue, numb. This base state dates back as long as I remember, but there are good times when it didn’t affect me as much. It gets worse under loneliness. For a long time I thought this normal. At other times, I considered myself broken. Or maybe just my…

My wife will randomly ask how do I know some woman? It’s usually from a like or comment on Facebook. Usually it’s someone I have introduced her to, but she doesn’t remember or connect a name with a face. I guess it’s a not her social connection, so it doesn’t merit retention, but I am stuck remembering all the social situations she’s met someone trying to find one she will remember. No…

I love the Ghost in the Shell movies. I watched the original easily over 30 times. And Innocence around 20. The the Stand Alone Complex series at least 10 each. Definitely comfort movies and shows. The philosophy and cyberpunk nature obviously drew me to them. I am on my first watch post accepting my autism and realized there’s an empathy I hold for these characters. Everyone holds specific…

This post made me think about myself staying up until 2am reading in middle and high school and post-college playing video games until 1-3 am. Overstimulation at school I hate school so much, I’m not even bullied it’s just a sensory hell hole to me. We aren’t allowed to listen to music during class like ever unless we have a pass from the guidance counsellor, but I’m not doing that cuz then…

Daily writing promptWhich book have you read more than any other?View all responses Starting at Christmas 1986 when I received it, I re-read A Spell for Chameleon every time Piers Anthony released a new book in the Xanth series through Demons Don’t Dream which was book 16. So, sixteen times. It was back in school where reading a book was more important than academic works. So was world building,…

Technology struggles with identifying me. My computer a work has a facial recognition system that wastes a bunch my time because it usually cannot identify me. Photo cloud services have always struggled not to confuse me with others. My phone’s fingerprint reader works okay, but only at best 60% if the time. CAPTCHA hates me.

My wife: I think we are going to the fitness center. You should come with us as you have not gone all summer. Me: It’s not an enjoyable place for me. The indoor track sits over basketball courts. Every surface creates horrible echoes where I quickly become an asshole and later realize my head hurts. Wife: When we’ve been this summer, hardly anyone is there. You can wear earphones. Me: That’s…

What's funny is I would rather have gluten from fish sticks over these subs. They have a gluten-free wrap, but the wraps are the cost of a full sub with the meat and other stuff of a half. I end up needing to spend $20 on wraps to get the same meal as a full sub.