âWhat?â Shuuhei had fallen into the weird, trance-like state that comes with repetitive motions, but he snaps out of it at his Captainâs approach. He sheathes Kazeshini. âYeah. Yes sir.â He slept. Not well, admittedly, but heâs run important missions on less sleep than this. Heâs had plenty of practice working on little sleepâ as a child, in the Academy, and now as a seated officer with mountains of paperwork to complete.Â
The apple comes flying towards him and itâs only reflex that has him snatching it out of the air before really registering what it is. He turns it over in his hand a few times, noting the part that had already been sliced out. Had Kensei eaten some of it? The cut is neat and perfectly sized, and Shuuhei wonders if heâd used Tachikaze to cut it. He wonders how the zanpaktou would feel about being used for such menial tasks. Kazeshini, at least, has too much pride for such a thing.Â
He bites into it, listens to his Captain update him on the mission status. Nothing fire-proof. Unfortunate, but not a huge problem. Theyâre both fairly fast and light on their feet, and should be able to avoid any serious burns. Oxygen masksâ helpful. Shuuhei hadnât even thought about the oxygen deprivation. He seriously doubts the usefulness of the lotion, but that might be because he associates the phrase âlotionâ with the smelly stuff Rangiku smears on his hands when they crack during the winter.
âIâm ready.â He nods. âThank you.â He adds, lifting the apple slightly. He feels, admittedly, a bit uncomfortable with everything. The memory of Tousen running point on missions is still strong in his mind, and he canât help but compare everything Kensei does with Tousen. Tousen never bothered to feed him before a mission, but there was always careful planning, maps and reviewing and he always trusted Shuuhei to show up at his very best. Tousen never bothered to ask if Shuuhei slept, and heâs not sure if he feels insulted or comforted by Kensei having asked. He takes another bite of the apple.Â
None of this is to say he doesnât trust Shuuhei. He trusts Shuuhei â not with everything, not with anything to do with his past â but he at least entrusts his life to him, which is more than he can say for most people. Shuuhei is capable, strong, a leader, someone who needs to be here in the coming years. Heâs the rock of the Ninth Division, far more than Kensei can be. Not now, not for a century.Â
That said, he does not want Shuuhei on this mission, any more than he wants Mashiro on this mission.Â
What he wants is a small group of capable officers, subordinates he can rely upon but not entirely. Warriors whose expendability is as implicit to them as it is to him, who understand that heâll protect them as much as he can but he canât be everywhere, even if he wanted to be. What he wants is his Muguruma Squad, but theyâre ashes just as much as the 18th and 19th Districts.
He watches Shuuhei eat the apple, thinking. Shuuhei is even more vulnerable to the fire than he is, mainly because his Captainâs haori is supposedly fire-resistant. Not that he trusts it against a full-on onslaught, but anything is better than nothing. Once they get out to around 16th District, heâll make sure they take the time to actually put on that lotion. Hopefully that officer knew what he was talking about; hopefully it wonât be like lotion on a sunburn (just cooking them from the inside out).
He is hesitating, putting off the inevitable. The longer they wait, the longer it will take, and the more likely Mashiro will come looking for them. He tugs the bag with equipment even further onto his shoulder and says, âLetâs go.â
And they go. There are perks to being a Captain, but this is not one of them.