hyper-ballad

Tomorrow everything will be okay.

Doctor told me not to touch my eye or face oughh I'm touching it I'm sorry my eye feels crusty and dry and also wet and itchy all at once omg double it and give it to the next person PLEASE

Okay another add on is that I kind of lost the plot in that first post but I just feel lonely for someone my age. I see a lot of my peers having rmultiple elationships or relationships that last years and yet I haven't dated ever since middle school. I know love isn't that important,well like romantic partners that is,but it's something I want to experience for myself. I want a true connection. I want lazy mornings together,I want soft tender moments,I want to know how someone feels just by looking at them,I want the good the bad and the ugly because I'm willing to try I just need someone to let me prove that to them.

Adding into my last post I also just want to be sure of myself I don't want to always question who I am or what I am and I know it may not matter to a lot of people but it matters to me

Omg I was reading fanfic today and it made me feel so lonely...i haven't had the best luck with relationships so it's made me question if I'm aromantic because Everytime I like someone and they confess first I lose all my feelings for them. It had happened with my first ever girlfriend when she confessed and all my feelings for her had gone away yet I told her I liked her back,let's just say that rls didn't end well. Also back in elementary I had assumed i was asexual too because well I didn't really feel anything for anyone but maybe puberty and hormones made me different I think but I'm not sure I really could be asexual still. I also consider myself pansexual but I always tell people bisexual or that I don't like labels because I really don't. I hate the word "lesbian" and I know it sounds bad,my way of thinking is bad too because it just seems so deragatory to me because that's all I've ever heard the word in and what I've been called. I also do have some issues with me being attracted to women. It's not an easy dynamic to understand. Especially for me haha. I also have felt like I was a guy ever since elementary school. I think the labels "gay guy" feel best not a "lesbian","bisexual",or "girl." Though there's a part of me that believes I could never be that no matter how much I want to be that even if deep down that's who I really am. I've only ever told a couple of people that I think I'm trans and it was very hard for me to tell them. Not even my best friend knows. I had told a guy who liked me about how I felt and it was very humiliating because he didn't understand. Anyway what I'm saying is I may be aroace and transgender. I'm not too sure yet.

Also I hate,hate. I always see someone hating on my favorite kpop groups and it like gets to me even though I know it shouldn't it just feels like they're against their favorites!!! Artms seem so happy performing on stage and promoting Hyper-Ego yet supposed "Ourii" are hating on the album for no reason!! If anything they should hate that they made an entire album WITHOUT ONE OF THEIR MEMBERS!! HASEUL DESERVES TO BE INCLUDED T.T!!

Guys my eye got super agitated and I went to the ER cause it was actually concerning on how it looked. I actually started feeling very overwhelmed because my mom seemed upset about her job and me because of school. I was also just feeling like I was running out of time or I don't have any time feeling this impending doom.

Maybe if I make my mom worry enough I'll get her attention and maybe I'll feel better lolll

im so bored and my eyes kinda hurt

when someone tells me TxT has the best discography but ik theyre lying because i cant stan them for the life of me

delayed but someday

Hyperballad shouldve been released and i dont think jaden jeong deleted the whole project cause like why would you delete your projects HE DIDNT EVEN SPECIFICALLY SAY HE DELETED HYPERBALLAD JUST HE DELETED A PROJECT

Stay with me babe

i think ive made a friend on tt?? theyre a Jungkook mod and they like to dance well let me rephrase that,they DO dance and i think its cool and we follow e/o on spotify im trying not to be picky..we've talked a little they said they're 08 which is cool cause im 09

my yves album is supposed to come in today EEEEKKK

i wish my mom was home i miss her