Dysi's Core

If you like the norm, you're hated.

If you don't think like everyone else, you're obnoxious.

Everybody wants to set a standard but wants to be different at the same time.

But remember that at the end of the day, you're consciousness of your own self is what truly matters.

There so much in this world and we hear so much voice.

I had a realization that I was dragging things. I felt like I was biting more than I could chew.

A lot of people talked about mental health at work, and I disregarded it.

I thought, how could you have a healthy mental with empty pockets.

The truth is, it's better to prevent than to cure.

You can't heal when you don't know what was wounded.

Now that I took some rest for a few months.

I'm yet healed. But it's been progressing for the better.

It feels as if once you have the anxiety you're body forgets how it's like without it. And now I came to realization that the process of healing an invisible pain could take a long course.

From being a practical person, you've turned into a one man battle because the battle happens within mind against itself. And you're now overthinking the smallest thing.

But overthinking slows down the progress. Does it ring anything? Does it sounds as if we're on the same boat, then, for what it's worth here's what has been helping me.

-- continous meditation.

When anxiety creeps in and you get overwhelmed, find a comfortable position and clear it.

As you close your eyes, feel free to be as anxious as you can, and remember the things that makes you feel so. This gives you the awareness of the present.

Then imagine a line graph that gets higher and higher as your mind wonders to the tasks or whatever it is that brings up anxiety.

And then you find the courage in you to take control because the lines are indeed of your control and once you're aware, it's now in your hands to push the lines towards the bottom of the graph.

Until it's clear. The lines should represent your anxiety and you must be aware of this.

When I do this, somehow the anxiety wears off. So I thought to post it for someone to read or for me to remember

I learned this from Silva Mind Control Method Book.

Also note that it does not have to be a line graph, you can have a different representation.

My practical perspective of this is that the brain needs to see some sort of a trigger or a thing that represents a feeling so it can command with clarity and has a better understanding of you.

I might have a different way of explanation or could be a different interpretation but it worked for me so far.

This weekend, we checked off another romantic movie from our list, or so we thought.

As I watched the film, I couldn't help but feel a sense of appreciation wash over me. Ryan Gosling, in his own inimitable style, effortlessly carried the entire movie. It's pretty incredible to think that the same guy who played Ken in Barbie is playing a role of a manly boy-next-door role and an amazing father.

While I had to pause every seen that had left me in awe, there are a few remarkable things that would make me pick this movie for the second time.

First of the list is the fact that calling Ryan as an actor felt like an underestimation of him. He's definitely an artist and deserves the best regards.

Secondly, watching this movie felt like peeking into someone else's life, and it all felt so real and natural. Refreshing for someone who often watched Marvels, fantasies, and unrelatable romantic movies. The movie has shown the highs and lows of real relationships.

Third, the cheesy part, this movie just made me appreciate my hubby even more as a father and LOML. I saw a part of my life which made me write this lengthy review that probably no one wouldn't even bother to read. Often, women find themselves the most forgiving one. This movie has brought glimpses of the tiny moments where I was the one being forgiven.

It didn't have the ending that we wanted for it to have, that's for sure.

I always go back to these home aesthetics after all the seasons that has passed.

I'm drawn to have blue for an accent but my favorite color has to be everywhere, white.

And Soderhamn sofa is still my first choice. Although the feeling is somewhat fading as I lean more towards a more structured piece.

Blue and brown go well with white, grey and marbles. Marbles, when used properly, makes home timeless.

And I like to keep things as timeless as they can.

I think they are sustainable and can sustain my busy schedule.

I believe I'm not the kind of a house wife that changes the home interior every week.

I'm more like...

How can I get a bad day when I have the best man in my life?

I'm beyond blessed to have a child who loves me to death and a man who loves my child like his. Such a noble love he has!

The most romantic thing

How fortunate I am to have this man in my life

Next year, I’ll be his official wife 

a year has passed and I can definitely attest

you are constant, thank you for giving your best

Of all the romantic stuff and good feelings, 

making a family with me is the best thing 

Few weeks we have to wait. You’ll be coming home to me every morning. 

I’ll prepare your breakfast and prepare your bed.