Genevieve writes

I haven't done one of these in the LONGEST time! I've had the best week so it's only right that I immortalize it through a blog post lol

Monday, Apr 21

Didn't really do much except rot in bed all day

Subscribed to ClassPass and booked a 7am pilates class at 7am pilates studio lol

Tuesday, Apr 22

Did my first pilates class at 7am studios in Parqal went with Gwen (paid for her session out of pocket just so that I didn't have to do it alone)

The studio was quite nice! There were only 3 of us in the class so it felt like we booked a private class

I was so out of shape that I barely made it out of that class alive haha – i felt so disoriented after doing curl ups :(

Went home immediately after because we were going to do an ocular visit in Cavite for my brother's wedding. I ended up staying at home because I was so tired and needed sleep

Wednesday, Apr 23

Went to MOA with my husband and nephew (yes, you heard that right blog, I'm married HAAHA) to get my underarms lasered

Zach went to the mall in his Spiderman costume because he didn't want to take it off hayyy

Skinstation had a promo where it was only 3k for 7 sessions which is super sulit considering how expensive underarm laser was when I was a teenager??

Also tried on the trendy square toe Havaianas slippers at SM Dept store so that I know what size I was going to buy on Shopee haha

Had dinner at our fave place – Tim Ho Wan

Thursday, Apr 24

Tried another activity through Class Pass - we went spinning at Ride Rev in Greenbelt, Gwen picked me up at home

Ate at Cibo right after hahaha so much for working out and losing weight

Ron picked me up at Greenbelt, went strolling around the mall - almost bought a rattan bag but thankfully didn't bec there are much cheaper options on Shopee

Added the Instax Wide camera to my wishlist

Fri, Apr 25

Went to SNR for a little bit of grocery shopping with my mama, papa, and ron :)

I bought mostly healthy stufff haha like vegetables, salmon, muesli. Ron was the complete opposite – he bought cup noodles and chips 💀

Ron and I went to MOA after because he wanted to look for Pokemon cards

As for me, I bought a new blush from Sunnies face (my fave right now!! Their powder blush in the shade bikini)

Saturday, Apr 26

Date with Mao! Went to Fullybooked and got myself a copy of Sunrise on the Reaping. Feels like 2014 again.

Had coffee at Pocofino – surprisingly their coffee was really good, but honestly the best coffee for me is still Starbz hahahaha

Yapped and talked about how we would go to Mcdo after Fullybooked/Powerbooks when we were teens because we spent all our money on books. So much has changed for us but I'm glad that some things are still the same :)

Had Dinner at Ooma, their sushi rolls are 💣, my mouth is watering just thinking about it now.

Went back to Fullybooked before closing time to buy some Sonny Angels hahahah they had the new cherry blossom series and it was just my luck that I pulled the one that I DIDN'T want.

Sunday, Apr 27

Spent the whole day at a wood working class which was my anniversary gift to Ron - he's always wanted to try wood working so I'm glad we got to do this together

Obviously not a hobby I'm interested in hahah but Ron already booked the next workshop for himself.

The class was at Wood Academy near Robinsons Magnolia (where I used to work) brought back fond memories of when I used to work at Uniqlo but also was a reminder of how far I'd come :)

I opened my blog last week because I was trying to find the track list of a mixtape I made on 8tracks when I was a teenager (after coming across a screenshot of it on my phone's gallery).

Writing my feelings down and sharing them with a bunch of strangers on the Internet is my coping mechanism.

It’s day 4 of my quarantine and I am so homesick. I wouldn’t be if I was already working so I’d have at least that to occupy my days, but spending time alone and in isolation has really got me thinking and sentimental over my home life and how I must be crazy for ever even considering moving out of the comforts of my childhood home. Totoo nga na it’s not until you move out that you realize how much you’ve taken for granted living at home with the whole family. And it’s not even the free lodging, no bills, always clean laundry, and home cooked meals that I’m talking about, alamoyun, it’s the comfort and emotional support I get at home that I miss. Just being surrounded by my family, even without having to talk, my mind and heart are at ease.

Some days when I’m really pissed off at my siblings for not doing any house chores, and for not doing anything to help around the house, I would think “I can’t wait til I have enough money to move out of this house,” and even planned with Maoi that we’d move in together. But now that I’m about to live alone, in my own apartment, 8 hours away from my hometown, I can’t imagine how I’ll ever get used to coming home to an empty space.

Not coming home to my mama’s loud voice asking me if I already ate, then nagging at me for something I forgot to do in the house, papa’s tight hugs and goodnight kisses, Gwen’s annoying face na laging nakasimangot tapos ngingitian lang ako pag may kailangan sakin, Kuya Ger’s funny stories about what the bigols were up to that day, Kuya Gabe’s random visits to my room to show me his collection of Pokemon cards, babysitting Zach!!!! Those small things that you wouldn’t even notice but had made your day.

I just can’t help feeling sad even though I know that me living alone isn’t permanent, and that I’ll be back in Manila in 6 months, because deep down in my heart I know that this has already started a big shift in our lives, and sooner than later, my sister and my brothers would be moving out as well to go on with their lives, making it official that we’re adults capable of taking care of ourselves. My papa was even talking about retiring already!

I honestly think that this is also just me not being ready yet to let go of my childhood and accept the fact that my parents are growing old. I kind of always thought that we’d be living in one house together forever lol 🥺 At 23, I shouldn’t even be clinging to my childhood that much anymore!!!!!

And I know that people say if you want to achieve something in life, you have to step out of your comfort zone, and that’s true, but can’t it also be true that you can achieve success while staying in your comfort zone 🥺🥺🥺 haaaaay i’m such a baby, but I really do miss home. I don’t care if it’s only been 4 days. 186 days til home sweet home!!!!!! HAHAHAHAHHAH 😭😭😭

I can’t help but smile everytime I pass by Ayala Triangle because it brings back fond memories of my internship days and because I’m reminded of how I’m so lucky to have them as friends. I say a prayer of thanks everytime, because I am truly, truly blessed to have these people in my life. My heart hurts a little too, because I miss them and I kind of wish we could just go back to when we had nothing else to think about but boys, enrollment, and deadlines 😂

I remember about 4 years ago I wrote a blog post here on Tumblr about starting college, my new friends and my crush haha. Now 4 years later, here I am about to do the same thing. 

I haven’t written anything personal for a long while now, but tonight I felt like I had to because I am somewhere between completely sad and happy. Normally, during times when I would feel like this, I would message my friend but I really don’t want to bother anyone right now with my feelings (and because I don’t like people thinking that I make everything about myself, even though I oftentimes do)

Soooooo, here it goes. 

I am graduating from college in less than a month. 

You know every time we were asked by a professor to introduce ourselves in front of the class (even though we were already juniors and obviously know each other very well already) everyone would introduce themselves in the same format -- “Hi, I’m *states name*, I’m *states age at that time*, and I graduated from *states high school alma mater*” -- But you know what the saddest part of the introduction is? It’s when you are asked why you chose the school and your major and almost everyone (including myself) would answer “Walang choice eh,” or “I actually wanted to study at *states Big Four school,*” or “I wanted to take up *states fancy major.*” It seemed like no one actually wanted to be here (and I don’t really blame them, my school isn’t exactly the college anyone dreams of going to) 

I’ve always wondered what my life would have been like if I had pursued my dream of studying in DLSU. Would I have cried over failed grades and professors who had no mercy? Would I have been cheering for the school’s team during the UAAP? Would I have spent my Thursdays happy in a bar? Would I have had a boyfriend by now? HAHAHAHAHA and would I have had the total college experience I’ve dreamed of as told by the movies I watched growing up? 

But you know what? I always end up thinking that if I had chosen the Taft life (lol) I wouldn’t have met my college friends. I’ve found comfort in the fact that if I had chosen to go to a different school, I wouldn’t have met the amazing people that I have spent almost every day of the past 4 years of my life with. The same people who have changed and inspired me in so many ways, the people who watched me grow up and I watched grow up into the fine young women they are today. The people who made my change my mind about MTC and made me realize that choosing to study there wasn’t so bad after all. Sure, college wasn’t always fun and exciting but because of my friends I ALWAYS had a reason to laugh and for that I am grateful. 

A part of me still wants to stay in school, to wake up every morning knowing that I’ll be seeing the familiar faces of my friends, that I’ll be spending the day laughing with them or at them. But a part of me also knows that my time as a student has come to an end and that it’s time for me to face the real world now, to finally go out of my comfort zone and meet new people again. I do hope that once we graduate and go our separate ways, we’ll still stay friends and that we’ll keep in touch no matter what happens because I honestly don’t know what I’d do without my friends.

naiiyak na ako while typing this ayoko na maging emotional SOOOO, THIS IS MY COLLEGE LIFE IN BULLETS

I am happy to report that I am still friends with my OG squad since freshman year lol (Hi Lee, Shaina, Therese, and Mielsen i love you guys so much) Sophomore year we met Mariel and Psyche and ngayon inseparable na kami hahahaha.

My first college crush who I wrote a blog post about (LMAO) already has a girlfriend so obviously di ko na siya crush (weh?) 

DAMN SOBRANG NAKAKA CRINGE PERO ISHASHARE KO NA YUNG BLOG POST NA YUN PARA MATAWA NAMAN KAYO: KAHIHIYAN NO. 1 & KAHIHIYAN NO. 2

Made a lot of friends but made a ton of frenemies as well lol

I overcame my fear of speaking in front of the class (Thanks Sir Don)

I learned how to drive!!! Didn’t start driving myself to school ‘til my senior year though and until now di ko pa nakukuha license ko sa LTO lmao 

Towards the end of my junior year, I had a crush on someone. I ALMOST made a blog post about him as well pero buti nalang hindi ko tinuloy HAHAHAHAHAHA I reaaaaaaaally liked him but he didn’t like me back so that’s that. 

Experienced an existential crisis at the age of 19 hahahaha and I will never ever ever EVER forget summer of 2017