Michael Olson's Locker

“Dear Karen, If you’re reading this it means I actually worked up the courage to mail it, so good for me. You don’t know me very well but if you get me started I have a tendency to go on and on about how hard the writing is for me. But this, this is the hardest thing I’ve ever had to write. There’s no easy way to say this so I’ll just say it, I met someone. It was an accident, I wasn’t looking for it, it wasn’t on the make, it was a perfect storm. She said one thing, I said another, next thing I knew, I wanted to spend the rest of my life in the middle of that conversation. Now there’s this feeling in my gut she might be the one. She’s completely nuts in a way that makes me smile, highly neurotic with a great deal of maintenance required, she is you, Karen. That’s the good news. The bad is I don’t know how to be with you right now. And that scares the shit out of me. Because if I’m not with you right now, I have this feeling that we’ll get lost out there. It’s a big, bad world full of twists and turns. And people have a way of blinking and missing the moment. The moment that could have changed everything. I don’t know what’s going on with us, and I can’t tell you why you should waste the leap of faith on the likes of me, but damn you smell good. Like home. And you make excellent coffee. That’s got to count for something right? Call me. Unfaithfully yours, Hank Moody.”

Ephram: (Amy’s phone rings) No, grab it, I don’t mind.  Amy: No it’s just Laynie. Probably feeling guilty for having blown me off.  Ephram: What - You mean tonight?  Amy: Yeah, some guy called her. We were supposed to go out, but she bailed on me last minute. So…  Ephram: I’m an idiot.  Amy: Why?  Ephram: She blew you off so you came to see me.  Amy: No, no, no. That’s not how it happened.  Ephram: Yea, that is how it happened. That’s how it always happens. Your first choice doesn’t come through so you come find me — your back up plan.  Amy: Ephram, I never think of you in that way.  Ephram: Maybe not intentionally,.. I mean, don’t you realize that makes it even worse. It’s like you don’t even realize how much that hurts somebody. How much that hurts me.  Amy: Look, I’m sorry if—  Ephram: No. No, I’m sorry. Alright, look, Amy I know your life is really rough right now. And I want to be there for you. I do. But not like this. I can’t keep being you’re second choice. Not when you’re my first. 

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