ᵍⁱʳˡ ᵒᶠ ᵍᵒᵈˡᵉˢˢ ᵈᵉᵃᵗʰˢ

                  selective & mutuals only roleplay for charlie morningstar from the hazbin hotel universe.   anti vivziepop.   imagery of violence / religious themes will be heavy on this blog.   penned by kita, twenty four, she/they.

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                  exploring themes such as.   saints and sinners / who is incapable of redemption / if angels can fall, demons can ascend / finding your power / being punished for the sins of our fathers / the heir to the throne / making the choice to be kind / the reality of being the antichrist

        what  was  worse ?  looking  upon  her  mothers  face ,  a  face  she  knew  better  than  her  own  /  one  she  had  seen  nearly  every  day  of  her  life  and  sought  comfort  in ,  and  seeing  someone  she  didn't  recognise    or  looking  and  realising  there  was  nothing  different .  that  this  was  the  same  woman  who  raised  her  /  who  she  ADORED  /  who  she  ran  to  in  tears  at  the  slightest  stumble ,  and  all  this time  she  had  been  blind  to  blood  stained  hands .  

        both  options  are  terrifying .  closes  her  eyes  like  a  child  so  that  neither  can  become  reality    delay ,  delay ,  delay  the  inevitable .  preserve  that  childish  innocence  for  as  long  possible    and  pretends  she  wasn't  A  FOOL  all  along  for  believing  they  were  any  different .  that  she  hadn't  lived  blind  to  think  they  were  above  killing  ;  avoiding  bloodshed  was  her  quirk ,  neither  of  her  parents  had  expressed  they'd  do  the  same .

        "  i  don't  need  protecting .  "   if  that  were  true ,  of  course ,  they  wouldn't  be  having  this  conversation .  clings  to  ideals  closer  than  to  reality .   "  i'm  not  a  child  anymore ,  i  can  protect  myself ,  you  don't  NEED  to  kill  for  me .  "

angelic blood...

i just fell to my knees.