Why I Moved Blogs So Much...
So a reminder to any who might not have caught that, for the hundredth time; I’ve moved blogs. However this time’s a lot different, in the fact that I actually feel good about this move.
The reason I’ve moved blogs so much is that at a point in being in the Fantroll community I lost all confidence in everything, My anxiety developed far past just being shy, and i began becoming an absolute wreck when it came to interaction of any kind. With that started me weighing myself to other people a lot, finding people somehow above me in worth and being all out intimidated by them, in a way that was no different than any person in the community feeling scared to interact with people they look after.
That led to me moving a lot to try and move on from lost friend and hoping maybe a new start would allow me to focus on people who actually cared for myself and my creations, and become more confident.. And as time passed and more things caused me to struggle to actually enjoy roleplaying and interacting with others I kept moving blogs, sometimes with the intent of trying to be more organized with my blog which had become a mess i didn’t want to deal with, or to ween off people who weren’t there for me, and just for the possibilities of free shit.
And in the end I just lost the ability to be happy in the community because of all the disappointment in myself and the fear that I had gained and that was when I decided finally to quit. I don’t know if it’ll be forever, and I know with some people I’d be more than happy to continue interacting with fantrolls, however for my own health I needed to decide to stop, and focus on what is important to me and that’s my art.
Sadly, I find it hard to follow fantroll blogs of those who’s art I adore too, because It still makes me upset, however I do hope after I get ahold of my health more I’ll be able to confidently follow those I love the art of so much.
So Until then I’m not going to be doing fantrolls. I may draw them still, but I need to regain confidence in my writing and roleplaying before I return to that.
Thank you to those who’ve stuck with me with every move, and those who understand. If you want to find my art blog, please hit me up, I’d be happy to give it to those who still want to follow me through what I do, even if it might not be fantrolls.
- Vale
