(Furiously scribbling)

In recent news of my life, I had left tumblr for a bit. During that time, things happened to me in real life. My father died, and my mother is in dire financial straits. I opened a GFM in hopes of helping out. I will share the story and link the GFM: 

https://www.gofundme.com/my-father-died-now-mom-needs-help

Hey guys, welcome to my first giveaway!  (｡•̀ᴗ-)✧ No particular reason as to why I’ve decided to do one! I just wanted to celebrate the arrival of my new keychains and the chance to give away some of my goods, so I suppose it’s a “thank you!!” for all of the craziness over these past years!! Of course shipping costs will be covered by me, no matter where the winners are located! I hope I didn’t forget anything, but please read the rules carefully!! and with all of that said…

Anyone who claims to be a real Marvel fan will reblog this on all social media platforms. And you’ll write to the actors of the Marvel movies to help us also. It seems like only the actors and us, the fans, are the ones who really care about Mr. Lee anymore. Please guys. We have to help him. NOW.

Stan Lee is a hero to a lot of us. It’s time that we be a hero for him. And even if you don’t like Marvel, anyone who doesn’t tolerate elder abuse should help!

Stan Lee created Marvel Comics.

Stan Lee changed the world of entertainment as we know it by diverging from the norm and encouraging the acceptance of those who are different (X-Men mutants in 1963).

Stan Lee, at the age of 95, is giving up on life because everyone close to him is depending upon him like vultures.

Please please please reblog this. Maybe someone with influence can help him. Maybe the state will step in if enough people but them about it. Maybe we can make Stan’s twilight years enjoyable instead of the hell he’s going through.

Thanks you.

Everyone who is reading this: I’m so glad you’re alive. I’m so proud of you. You are loved. I’m here. Don’t give up, we’re almost there.

Reblog this message if you encourage anyone that wants to draw your OC to do so.  No need to ask for permission in advance.

Go for it.  Draw my OC.  If you want, I’ll even give you reference posts.  Go to town on it.

You are welcome to draw my OC and surprise me with the result.  Seriously.  In fact, I encourage it.  I will proudly display whatever it is you submit to me regarding my OC.  There is a chance that I will squeal about it for several days.

Suicide Hotline: 1-800-784-8433

LifeLine: 1-800-273-8255

Trevor Project: 1-866-488-7386

Sexuality Support: 1-800-246-7743

Eating Disorders Hotline: 1-847-831-3438

Rape and Sexual Assault: 1-800-656-4673

Grief Support: 1-650-321-5272

Runaway: 1-800-843-5200, 1-800-843-5678, 1-800-621-4000

Exhale: After Abortion Hotline/Pro-Voice: 1-866-4394253

My Undertale Secret Santa present for @duskydoo ! They requested Gaster Blaster Sans and Adult Frisk fluff. 

Admittedly I’m not too hip with most of the AU’s, but I did some googling and I read a couple of Gaster Blaster Sans fics so I’m hoping I got the gist of it right. 

I decided to make a mini-comic where Sans gets out of control and can’t control his transformation, and Frisks SOUL is what brings him back to himself. Sorry it’s a bit sad, but they are there for each other and that’s what counts.

Heya dudes,

Will is a good friend of mine, and he’s in some serious financial trouble right now, trouble that could cost him both his youtube and twitch. If you’re a fan of any of his music works, be it Bendy, FNAF, Cuphead, or any number of his letsplays, if you could take the time to donate even a dollar, he could really use the help.

Hello! I hope eveyone is doing well! I have a few things I need to announce!

1) I’m starting collage this summer! I’m going to be attending Academy of Art University for illustration! (thank you FASFA)

Starting on June 25th I probably won’t be very active due to the summer semester, especially with it being a very fast-paced course from what I underatand. (I gotta get TWO flipping projects done PER WEEK! It takes me TWO WEEKS to get ONE project done right now!) So please, wish me luck, I need it!

2) I’m getting merried in October!

I’m curious to know if anyone would like me to post photos from our wedding? I would love to share it with everyone, but I want to make sure it’s something you would like to see!

3) I’m thinking about making a KO-FI account.

The reason is to try and help with the wedding, collage, maybe get a better drawing tablet (the one I have right now is starting to bug out on me a little) and to help with the bills. If I do it with each donation will come a custom photo of whatever you want and a shout-out! ( I’d have to ask to try and keep it SFW this really isn’t a NSFW blog, although I may make one for NSFW photos in the future.)

Well there’s the lastest news! Thank you so much for taking thr time to read this!

I work in an ER and we see suicides all the time. And we get at least 3 suicidal ideations a night. We all care about you. I promise, we do. A team of complete strangers who have worked 3+ 12 hour shifts this week who are being screamed at all day and night and probably haven’t had lunch and trust me, we still love you and care about you.

We had a 16 year old patient last night who we couldn’t save. We were in that room with this patient for over an hour, we did everything we could. And let me tell you, we all cried. The EMT’s, the nurses, the doctor. We all huddled together in the doctors dictation room and cried.

I went through the rest of my shift with smudged mascara and tracks on my cheeks.

I remember the names of all the patients that have taken their lives on my shifts.

I remember squeezing the hands, smoothing the hair, kissing the foreheads, and wiping away the blood and the vomit of every patient that has left me too soon.

I can still see every face that I have zipped into a body bag.

Trust me, someone cares about you. You have never met them yet. You don’t ever think about them. They are never remembered when you talk about heroes and role models.

There was a nurse though, who came into my room with a soft smile, who held my hand, who took away the bottles when she noticed me watching them for too long. There was a nurse that plugged in my phone to charge in case my family called back, that took away the bloody cloths the paramedics had left me with, that helped me put my hair up when it was sticking to my tear streaked face, because my arms were too sore to do it myself.

There was a nurse that saved my life twice in one night, who made me feel that I was worth being looked after, and her name was Emma and she was the most beautiful person I’ve met.

Months later, I was visiting my mother at the same hospital whilst she was incapacitated with back concerns. Whilst I sat and watched my mum sleeping, a nurse approached to check up on her. She met my gaze and she smiled immediately, face lit with recognition, and she said “oh my gosh, hey! How are you doing?”

People definitely do care about us even if we don’t think they do, and to the original poster?

Your faces are never forgotten either.

“Always Keep Fighting”

And sometimes, I’ll admit, they become so overused and repetitive that the meaning and message can get lost.

I was transporting a teenager to a mental health facility after her attempt. I told her my own story and it resonated with her a bit. But what got her to change her attitude towards recovery was this:

“It fucking sucks girl, but I tell myself ‘I am enough’ every single day and it does help over time.”

She nodded.

“So…what are you?”

“Enough,” she replied with such a beautiful smile. One that I think she doesn’t show very often.

I told her she needed to say it in front of her parents, who were absolutely distraught that she tried to kill herself. As a parent, I felt their anguish and they probably were blaming themselves for not seeing the signs in time.

She managed to tell her parents that she was enough.

Her father replied, “Damn right you are, princess.”

I don’t think this girl had a good relationship with her father (know the feeling) because she looked at him like he told told her she was going to be crowned Queen of England that night.

WE AS MEDICAL PROFESSIONAL DO CARE ABOUT YOU. EVEN WHEN NO ONE ELSE DOES.