nothing at all...

I'm fat weird and ugly. Of course no one would actually be interested in me besides a fuck.

Unfortunately when I start having sei really just wanna end up fucking all the timmmeee

I'm in a weird headspace. I need to do more but I really don't have the motivation anymore. Being alive is hard. Being with someone just made me realize how fucked up I really am and that I don't deserve anything. I'm taking it all for granted. I'm selfish and tired and lazy and don't care. I'm such a fucking loser.

Hooked up with a dude but on the drive home I cried and cried. It was good sex. But I think it's cuz he reminded me of an old ex. It was bringing up stuff I forgotten about. Was a weird head space for a bit. I don't know if I want to it again with him. I might be too vulnerable rn for anythinggg. Idk. I need to focus on getting a job. Maybe felt guilty for going out and not filling out job apps. Bleh.

Worst stalling out episode I've had in a long time. My period made it worse. I'm finally feeling like I'm getting my energy levels back. Also hooked up with someone but I was on my period so we did anal and y'all I was so surprised it went in as easily as it did cuz it's been a loonnnggg time since I've had that done lol.