do me a favor and reblog this and put in the tags what time it is for you and what you're currently doing/thinking about

the online identity and gimmick-ifying of autism is so odd. I'm diagnosed with autism and yet I barely identify with any stuff I see about it anymore. It feels like autism is being rebranded as the Silly Guy Disorder that gives you smart and beautiful hyperspecific interests. it's not that I mind silly jokes or being lighthearted about being autistic- but when the entire social movement is based around marketing us this way, I just can't help but feel isolated from it. it feels like I'm not the right kind of autistic. I'm not marketable and digestible to common audiences, and therefore I am discarded by the movement in the name of progress and acceptance. it feels foul.

Felt weird and now its everyones problem

i think there is something fundamentally wrong with me but that's okay

no but really i do think a lot about how assad zaman and bally gill already knew each other for AT LEAST 6 or 7 years prior to iwtv and how much funnier that makes the whole rashid situation. because imagine you audition for a minor character role as a servant in a horror series only to be told that no, actually, you’re playing one of the most major and important characters in it. and then you get to call your friend and go hey i have a role for you and it’s going to be really funny i promise.