I'm Lost

You see him kissing this new girl and you want to fucking die because the way he’s holding her is the way he held you and you know he doesn’t even think about you anymore and you know you shouldn’t care because he fucked you over and you don’t love him anymore but it still fucking hurts and you know he doesn’t love her you’ve seen him with so many girls since you were with him but it still doesn’t hurt any less. And you try to convince yourself you’re over him but you catch yourself drinking his favorite alcohol trying to taste him again.

To the next girl he gives his heart to- Feed him. He’s like a 5 year old child, whenever he is hungry he gets moody don’t take it personally, it’s just him. If you are ever laying in bed at 11pm and find yourself wrapped in his arms scared because you see a huge ass spider, don’t count on him to protect you, he hates spiders just as much. It’s hard to find a food that he dislikes, he will pretty much eat anything except olives, but you’re always safe with a steak or some other meaty meat. He’s a sucker for g strings, if he comes home in a bad mood, show him your underwear and he will calm down. His friends are the most important things to him, don’t get to jealous about it, I made that mistake and at the end of the day be happy he has others to count on, it doesn’t mean he doesn’t enjoy your company. Cars are his absolute favourite thing, to him they are his happy place. If it’s fast, lowered and loud chances are he’s going to love it. He loves a good back rub and hair rub. Calms him down and he’ll love you for it. He plays these damn right annoying car games, he becomes so obsessed with them that getting his attention is impossible, don’t stress just go do your own thing until he gets bored. Sometimes he talks way too much but just nod and smile, don’t shut him down. Give him loads of kisses, neck kisses especially, cuddle him as much as you can, appreciate every minute you get with him, he’s one of a kind. I hope you learn from my mistakes and take on board everything I have said so you can actually love him right. He deserves an amazing girl so I hope you love him better than I did, and please I know I’m the last person you want advice from but please love him right, care for him, cherish him, he’s one of a kind and you’re lucky to be in his life.

You told me you hated people like that. Look at yourself. You’re that.

Maybe I can’t trust anyone else because the last person that told me they loved me woke up one morning and decided they’ve had enough.