Can I make it?
Heart is heavy, but can I make it? What can be done to get pass through this? This is heavy and painful. What should I do? This isn't a mistake, but is this the point where everything falls and shatter? Where everything stops and it resets to 0? Where everything should just be erased and start new?
Which one is it, which one is it, which one is it?
As heavy as it feels, its familiar, its safe. Do I just go on? Do I just swallow and live with the unsafe world? Do I just live with the wool in my throat? Do I just grip onto this burning charcoal till my bone turn to dust?
There's an escape, do I take it? Do I leave it? Which one is it? Which one, which one, which one.
Pain and suffering that I can't describe, that I can't put in words, that doesn't come out from my mouth, that can't be explained.
I'm not the only one who made mistakes, you did too. But you don't want to see it, you don't want to accept it. Even if it seems small to you, even if it's just a day, even if it's just a coffee. Pain is still pain, a cut is still a cut. No matter how big or small, it still creates scars and wounds. And it's even worst I pointed it out but there was never an apology, it was all tables turn. It was all pin pointing back, there was never and acknowledgement and apology.
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