maybe it’s true that max has been working for her attention since the second he met her, but in the villa it’s doubtful he’d even have gotten a look in between the luke and the josh and the maddox of it all, and naomi, somehow naomi still ticking like an insect beneath her skin. however complicated her feelings about josh are, her feelings towards naomi are infinitely more complex. sometimes when mimi thinks about her life it feels biblical ; in the same way the holy books span ‘before christ’ and after death, her life seems bisected into two halves, before and after love island, the mimi that existed before and the mimi that’s forever suspended like a loop track, infinitely rewatchable on a screen. it’s like being on the show took a piece of her out ( a whorecrux ) and now anybody who meets her feels like they own a part of her, the same way people who pay for her only fans feel like they own a piece of her simply because they’ve seen her tits. she left a piece of herself in the villa, part of her confidence, part of her ego. she’d entered this ball of fire, left in a plume of flames too, but somewhere along the way she lost herself. she can’t help but attribute it to men, the way over a series of days they’d slowly broken her down, used to having all eyes in the room on her and suddenly unable to hold josh’s attention longer than a handful of days. be careful with her, he’d warned luke. she gets hot and heavy fast. like it was a bad thing to try before you buy into a whole ass relationship. like he’d had any idea what it felt like to be going steady with a guy only to find out six months in that he sucked at giving head. by the end of the show, she’d made peace with josh, with the journey they’d been on and all the unfinished business along the way. now she’s watched the things he’d said about her behind closed doors to her partner, to her friends, she’s not sure she feels the same way. it’s opened a can of worms she doesn’t know how to put the lid back onto. now, when she finds herself in intimate moments, she feels those words slither over her skin, feels the sink of teeth and the venom in her veins.
if max notices the way she briefly leaves her body, he doesn’t show it, hand slinking between her thighs only to leave her unsatisfied. her groan is anguished and visceral as she grinds against his fingers, begging them to slip just a little further. when he tells her he’s been working since he met her, she can’t refrain her eye roll. “ yeah ? ” she responds, a lilt of challenge in her tone when he meets her hand with his. “ work harder. ” she’ll take the pain in the ass comment with a pinch of salt, considering how clear it is that he not only loves but craves a pain in the ass — would probably let her peg him if she asked. one day she'll ask. her thumb swipes along his tip and lifts it to her lips to taste him, bambi-eyed and full of faux innocence as she lowers herself, all the while her gaze trained on him. predictably, the moment he grabs for the camera is the moment she replaces her hand with her mouth, feels him pad against her tongue, then the roof of her mouth, then the back of her throat. it’s only as she slides her fingers beneath the waistband of her pyjama shorts to ease the ache that mimi realises how incredibly one-sided this whole situation feels. sure, she’s the one on top, but he’s the one who started this, sinking his hand between her thighs and neglecting to follow through. all she gets is a teasing suck of the tit before he lies back and thinks of england ? not on her watch.
when she draws her lips off him, she lets her tongue linger, drawing a path from hilt to tip, before she sits back against his thighs. “ babe, how hungry are you ? ” she asks, in the same vein as she always does when the two of them start thinking about takeout, or cooking, the prospect of another night spent bickering over what to eat. “ like could you eat now, or are you saving yourself ? ” part of her waits for the spark of recognition in his eyes when he catches the bait that she’s tossing him, but knowing max, it could take a while, his thoughts likely swilling with a myriad of menus while he tries to decipher if dinner’s really worth interrupting this. rising up on her knees, mimi sinks a finger into her mouth and sucks, pulling it down over her lower lip, over her chin, over her throat. it leaves a little trail of spit, shiny like a snail’s trail, as she draws it down over her chest, over her stomach, sinks it into her shorts with a performative little gasp, rolling her hips against the grain of it. her thumb tucks over the edge of her pyjama shorts, and in one sharp tug, brings them and the panties down, abandoned around her knees. hands grasping his hips like the horns of a rodeo bull, she throws a leg over him, her back to him as she sits, reverse cowgirl on his chest, and gazes over her shoulder, eyes bright with mischief. “ i think you’re hungry... ” she notes, nose wrinkling, when she swipes the phone from his fingers to free up his hands so that they'll pay her skin attention instead, props it up against the leg of the coffee table, little care for the cinematics or whether they’re even in frame. “ you should eat. ” one hand on his hip, the other wrapped around his shaft, she shifts her ass back to sit on his face. her intake of breath is sharp, hand flexing it’s grip against his hip, battling the urge to buck her hips. she lowers herself, licks a line over his abdomen, and sinks her mouth down onto his length to taste him.